Ending my life...

lalalala

2005-03-28T01:51:00.000-08:00

hahaha.

2003-11-24T07:46:00.000-08:00

Perhaps perhaps perhaps.. I had got over her Don't know.. Maybe Remember once i told you something? Every four of you had an unique name for yourselves Had you found yours? Remember.. No matter what.. These unique names belong to each one of you Including you And no one can rob them away.. No one..and never.. Someone else.. Not her But this you.. Maybe..you are reading this..

2003-11-18T07:43:00.000-08:00

You reached Taiwan Safely Thank God But.. You didn't took enough rest >.<~~ Please take really good care of yourself Don't tired yourself out okay? Take enough rest.. I don't what is with me again I need God with me again >.< Pray pray pray.. I did that almost every night now To remove the discomfort everyday Even that day I don't know why.. I'm phobia of crowd Phobia of

2003-11-17T02:32:00.000-08:00

I realised how much i miss you No idea.. Have you reached? I guess..this is the first time i miss you so much.. So much.. I know it's totally impossible to hold your hand again.. Impossible to talk to you.. ~~ >.< ~~ *sob* Have you reach Taiwan peacefully? Have you have enough rest after yesterday promos? Have you take really good care of yourself? Your hand is so warm.. Your eyes are so bright

2003-11-17T00:43:00.000-08:00

Just so long that i've blog.. Erm.. I'm like totally a piggy lorh.. Everyday sleep and sleep..eat and eat..haha~ Don't even looked like a netballer~ Well..i don't think i consider as one too.. No netball trng for me.. Though i really want it so much.. Don't know why..~ >.<~~ Hey~ Erm.. Yesterday was the XJ promos.. Went there and waited for..erm..~ 9 hours..hee~ Though..haven broke

2003-11-07T05:49:00.000-08:00

There are times Where i really got hurt Very deep hurt.. But had been there with me Almost no one.. But are more people.. Who love to add oil to fire And love to rub salt on wounds Nice people right? Well.. But there are still nice people around Like my piggy family.. And..my darling [two]s[three]'03 people.. =Pp Though i have no time to dedicate messages to my whole class But the only i wished

2003-11-04T05:42:00.000-08:00

Oh.. And one interesting thing i found out Erm.. Kelvin is Edwin's brother? Erm.. Too bad.. Kelvin is much much more good looking than Edwin..=X Lol..=Pp Hahaha~ Kelvin rawkz~

2003-11-04T05:39:00.000-08:00

Today.. As usual.. The life-science course.. Erm.. 9-5 But today i found it quite fun.. No idea why.. Tomorrow last day.. Erhx.. Sophia..haha~ You and your Kah Woon.. Lol..it that how i spell his name? Hahahaha~ Must treasure you last day with him tomorrow! Hahahah~=Pp Hey..Kelvin is CUTE okay?! Hahhahaha.. Totally totally.. Lol.. Guess what..i'm like smiling all the way during the session we had

2003-11-04T05:30:00.000-08:00

Nah nah nah.. Things are supposed to learn.. I won't not be defeated At least after you leave the school..

2003-11-04T05:18:00.000-08:00

Maybe it's time.. I learn to really accept things.. Things are just not as what i want them to be.. I'm wrong.. Totally wrong.. That's why.. I got hurt again and again.. I fall in deeper and deeper hole each time.. Got to know things that i'm not supposed to Got to know people who i'm not supposed to Got to love people who i'm not supposed to Got to enter a place which i don't belong to Again

2003-11-03T05:47:00.000-08:00

Sometimes..sometimes.. I felt totally lost I admit i got really bad attitude sometime.. But..i really didn't meant it.. Especially to my piggy family.. I know i really show real attitude to them.. But..sometime i just can't control.. I really thank you all so much for being so patience with me With my sucky attitude.. Thank you my darling pigs.. I love all of you loads and loads and loads..

2003-11-03T04:43:00.000-08:00

Today so tired.. 9 to 5 okay the workshop... Hai.. Then so boring lorh.. Slept for don't how long.. Alamak.. What's this larh.. I don't care.. Tml also 9 to 5.. Kao..i'm like totally going to die lorh.. Hey people.. I don't know why.. But i could feel the sense of coldness.. Have i done any wrong? If yes.. I'm really sorry.. You once said in my gbk.. We are 2S3..and always united.. But..why do i

2003-11-03T04:38:00.000-08:00

Erm.. I don't know why.. But i rather contented with my life now.. No idea why.. Just like it.. The way my life it now.. 2S3 rawkz* forever Do you know how much i miss you? Just so much.. But you are forever so dao.. I don't know how am i supposed to talk to you.. Hai.. I just miss you so much.. Just so much.. It's NOT Her that i'm talking about It isn't..

2003-11-02T09:03:00.000-08:00

Hope to meet you again.. I really hope to Hope to go out with you again.. Really hope to Hope to chat with you again.. Really hope to.. =Pp.. I didn't get in too deep.. I hope.. Hope to see you everynight online? Hopefully..=| =X

2003-11-02T09:02:00.000-08:00

Erm.. Should i say today or yesterday? It's like 12 going 1am now? Alright..i should say yesterday okay? Since the day had passed.. You see.. Yesterday.. I'm totally slacking my life okay? Sleep and sleep and sleep.. Like a pig.. Well..i'm..=Pp Meo² Zhu².. My piggy family.. Wasting my life off.. Hai.. But..haha.. It's alright.. After all the hardwork i put in for end-of-year.. [Which still

2003-11-02T08:56:00.000-08:00

Erm.. Really began to miss someone i shan't.. Nah..i really shan't.. Sorry..i really shan't.. It's less than one hour And i started to miss you..

2003-11-02T08:54:00.000-08:00

Do you ever? Nah..you never alright? Though i don't understand you But..i'm sure.. Nah nah nah! You NEVER..

2003-10-29T03:32:00.000-08:00

Got back my report book yesterday.. I'm so pathetic.. My result sucks like hell Totally totally okay? I almost fail my english Thank to my mid-year... Which is like E8?! Totally right? But lucky that i didn't fail.. Hai..then now i so headache Don't know which course to choose.. I want triple science.. But OBVIOUSLY My sucking result can never get me there.. Hai..=| I begin to miss someone.. Nah

2003-10-29T03:26:00.000-08:00

Westside rawks! We are the BEST!

2003-10-29T03:22:00.000-08:00

Just finished watching Westside not long ago.. About half an hour ago? Hahaha..=Pp.. Now watching Holland V. Erm..that YTC finally die liao!!! Hahaha..i hate him..totally! No no no.. I should be talking about Westside now.. Hahaha..Westside rawks okay? So nice.. Zax is so cute..=Pp Eh...okay..i admit Tony more shuai okay? Haha.. Erm..i spent 50 bucks on Westside a few days ago.. -_-|| Totally

2003-10-26T03:47:00.000-08:00

Things changed.. And also please stop accusing me.. For words that said but not referring to that person For things that happened but not because of that person I just wonder if you could read english? Please re-read my entry.. And you would find that the whole entry DIDN'T direct to anyone except for my Grandfather.. Tsk me as you like.. Not like i bother about it anymore.. Because the kind of

2003-10-23T05:15:00.000-07:00

My heart feels pain Just so pain.. But i don't know why.. How much time had my tears almost dropped down? So much time..countless.. It's not all because of her But yah..partly.. So much things happened.. I don't know what to do.. I don't know how should i react.. God.. Why to put me in such position? You know i can't take it.. I really can't.. I got really bad mood swing.. Every moment.. I'm so

2003-10-22T06:04:00.000-07:00

Hurt Do you understand a little bit about this? No..you never..and will never Do you know how pain is my heart Do you know how many pieces my heart had broken to No..you never know.. Why to torture me with all this Wish to see me break down in front of you? So cruel..so heartless.. Why can't you just go off peacefully? Have you to hurt people even just after you left.. EX-CRESCENTIAN If yes.. Why

2003-10-13T20:53:00.000-07:00

You see Day by day I get to understand her deeper Deeper to such that.. I don't know what kind of feelings i have for her All the bad things i had heard about her How much i wish to deny them But..they are just so solid facts Things i even saw it from HERs blog I really couldn't deny anything.. Any more thing.. People told me.. She doesn't worth it.. She doesn't give a f.u.c.king damn about you

2003-10-12T12:54:00.000-07:00

[Today] Was raining super heavily in the morning.. Then..was about to go back woodlands.. To buy..phone..sign phone.. Hahah.. Long way man Then reached woodlands.. Rain stopped..[Whatever] Then went to sign the contract.. Hehehe.. Guess what I got Nokia 6610 Hahaha.. So happy okay.. Then i signed this membership card.. Free unlimited downloading of ringtones and screensavers for 1 year Yeah yeah

2003-10-12T12:47:00.000-07:00

P a s s e d G o n e Thank God.. I got through 12 Oct.. Every moment had been torturing me Every one of them - - - - - - - - - - - - - What should i be saying? I'm so hurt.. So hurt I just can't believe Whatever are going to happen and had happened are facts True and solid facts Life is just so cruelty Forced me to accept facts that i'm not willing to The day had passed But..it'll be coming

2003-10-07T04:32:00.000-07:00

So u n s e c u r e* I'm really not a good p e r s o n Not a good s t u d e n t Not a good d a u g h t e r Not a good j u n i o r Not a good s e n i o r Not a good f r i e n d Not a good c r e s c e n t i a n Not a good c l a s s m a t e Not a good n e t b a l l e r Not a good s i s t e r Not a good a d v i s o r Not a good l i s t e n e r I'm just not someone good in this world I don't deserve to

2003-10-06T00:26:00.000-07:00

* I W i l l G e t O v e r * * I W i l l D e f i n i t e l y G e t O v e r * * I S w e a r I W i l l G e t O v e r *

2003-10-04T19:48:00.000-07:00

Gosh.. Finally finally my Chinese paper 1 and Literature.. Literature this subject really stressed me up alright.. Here haven't teach finish..there haven't teach finish.. Hai..rush here and there.. Finally it had passed huh? Great great. You know. Sometime i would love to suggest something to Crescent "Wouldn't you people might as well put English paper 1 with Literature and Chinese paper 1?" [

2003-10-04T19:27:00.000-07:00

My Immortal my immortal i'm so tired of being here suppressed by all of my childish fears and if you have to leave i wish that you would just leave because your presence still lingers here and it won't leave me alone these wounds won't seem to heal this pain is just too real there's just too much that time cannot erase when you cried i'd wipe away all of your tears when you'd scream i'd fight

2003-10-04T19:26:00.000-07:00

Whatever is with me now I don't understand.. Stress had overcome me.. Really overcome me.. How emotional am i now? I cry..and just cry for nothing. But yet.. I dragged my friends down with me I'm not a good friend am i? I'm not.. That's loads of time Loads and loads of time I wish you would be there for me When i cry.. I wish that you could console me When i have difficulties I wish that you

2003-09-29T07:02:00.000-07:00

Loads of people chose to leave me now In these moment of stress, depression and everything The most important moment of my life Yet people rather leave me than staying by my side to support me I need them well.. I need them badly.. Every single of them But.. Why must you people choose to leave me.. It just hurt to so much to see close friend leaving me when i'm walking down the most difficult

2003-09-29T06:28:00.000-07:00

=> W a n t e d <= -> M i s s i n g <- -> i n <- -> S c h o o l <- [When are you coming back] [There is a letter waiting for its owner to claim it] [Come back soon] [It's waiting for you] [So am i] Searching high and low Low and high You know people.. I suddenly found out so really chio and cute seniors.. Hahahaha They include.. //Mingshan// //Peishan// //Denise// /

2003-09-25T22:06:00.000-07:00

How hard things had been.. No more idea what really cheers me up in school.. [Seeing funny colours appearing on my keyboard..] [So ghostly..grey..pink..blue..am i really so stressed?] Wrote letters yesterday.. Found out that how long since i last wrote.. Well.. Thank you..that's really nice of you.. [Are people really so nice? Because i just don't get use to people's concern..] Today came to

2003-09-24T05:47:00.000-07:00

Cried again.. Why.. Last time i cried reading all the letters.. Now.. I still cry reading all the letters.. How long had all of them been.. So long..so long.. "I hardly treat juniors so well..you must be honour.." One sentence that you said to me.. I'm honour.. No..i USED to be very honour.. But not now.. How nice you used to be.. No..! You are still nice now.. Just that i had ruined all those..

2003-09-23T04:59:00.000-07:00

Let this be the last time for me to love you again.. Just one last time for me to tell you i love you.. It's really pain to keep it down to heart Because.. Everytime when i see you I wish to place the happiness on my face But..i can't I wish to jump around But..i can't I wish to start telling all my friends that you are there But..i can't I cried Not less than ten times Not less than twenty

2003-09-22T04:10:00.000-07:00

Some say love, it is a river That drowns the tender reed Some say love, it is a razor That leaves your soul to bleed Some say love, it is a hunger An endless aching need I say love, it is a flower And you its only seed It's the soul afraid of dreaming, That never learns to dance And the soul afraid of waking, That never takes the chance It's the one, who won't be taken Who

2003-09-21T00:21:00.000-07:00

Kill me if you can Not like anyone going to bother How much tears had i dropped? Just because you are leaving? Yesterday This very morning But have you given any attention? To my entries? To me? How much cold-shoulders are you going to give me? Ignore me as you like Dao me as you can It's not like i'm going to care.. Juniors could give you more attentions than me After so much longer that i've

2003-09-20T07:45:00.000-07:00

I almost cry reading my own entry How funny.. I almost cry on what i've wrote by myself You played that song Though it wasn't for me But.. You had played the song that i wanted.. You had fulfilled my request..unknowningly.. Well.. Thank you.. I almost break down when i heard that song..that tune.. It had been really long that i had hear it from you.. This had been the second time.. But non of

2003-09-19T03:32:00.000-07:00

Lots of things had happened these few days Mostly happy things.. I had laughed rather lots these few days Happiness was really a sweet thing A really sweet thing.. But how much i hope that these moment never fade These moment never pass Because I'll no more enjoy all these After a few more weeks Because the sources of my happiness Are gone.. Maybe it because of this I've been treasuring the time

2003-09-14T05:16:00.000-07:00

-Disappointed- -No comment-

2003-09-11T06:18:00.000-07:00

Should i love you Or should i not? I just miss you so much.. So so so so so much But you just never realise it..

2003-09-11T00:42:00.000-07:00

Guess i missed out alot of things lately Regretted? Somehow.. But well.. If that's my life I accept it.. -No comment on my life- *It's just so sucky*

2003-09-09T02:50:00.000-07:00

Just did my chinese.. Some revision notes *Hrmps* Now my neck was it GREAT pain *Cracking my neck* Ouch..pain.. Okay.. Next time i shan't spend so much time lying on the ground doing things It'll just caused my neck to BREAK Tomorrow.. Hopefully i can officially start on my homework Hahaha~ Or..i can't imagine what will happen to me school re-open Hahaha~ Hey! I finished around 2/3 of my Harry

2003-09-08T08:53:00.000-07:00

Read alots of past things Entries.. My friends and mine I don't whether are they really my friends Are they willing to be my friends But what i've never know was how much they used to hate me Should i use "used"? Or they still hate me now I don't know I really sorry of my fucky and sucky attitude i used to have I'm really sorry I'll change..just for you..my friends I'm sorry Jan..for the kind of

2003-09-08T07:51:00.000-07:00

*no comments* I got just nothing to say

2003-09-07T04:36:00.000-07:00

.::Tears*dripping*in*my*Heart::. It somehow really hurt me I don't know what I don't know who My Romeo? Maybe.. I just read my Romeo's blog I don't know what to say It don't concern about me And i don't understand why should i be concern too Because it's from my Romeo? Maybe But one thing to you I really do love you Romeo Accept me or not It's to you Just remember No matter where you are

2003-09-03T05:46:00.000-07:00

My heart is going wild again I felt like crying again I don't know why Why is my heart always going so wild and start thinking of things And feeling sour.. I don't know what is bothering me What? Who? Is it my Romeo? Is it my *hem* Or is it.. I don't know.. What's really deep inside my heart? *Pain* Everytime when i see my Romeo.. I don't have that really deep feeling anymore I can get rather

2003-09-01T07:58:00.000-07:00

AdDiCtEd by Simple Plan I heard you're doing ok But I want you to know I'm a dick I'm addicted to you I can't pretend I don't care When you don't think about me Do you think I deserve this I tried to make you happy But you left anyway Chorus*~ I'm trying to forget that I'm addicted to you But I want it And I need it I'm addicted to you Now it's over Can't forget what you said

2003-08-29T05:00:00.000-07:00

What's wrong with my life? I shouldn't had went back I shouldn't had see him Why..why..why.. You are the first person that i wish to see when i reached school You are the first person that i looked out for You are the first person i wish so much to talk to You are the first person in my mind when i'm leaving You are the first person that i wish to meet You are the only person in my mind the whole

2003-08-28T02:02:00.000-07:00

[Broken*Down] Why.. Why to force me I've already tried so hard to control myself But every single words from you were forcing my tears out.. I've told myself Not to cry..not to cry Because i can't cry But..still..you forced my tears out.. Is this what you were trying to force out from me? Now..i can tell you I can collapse right in front of you And i can just stop studying.. And show you what

2003-08-27T04:13:00.000-07:00

I looked like a walking zombie.. Don't i? I cried very easily.. I got mood swing very easily.. Everything's coming up my life.. Screwing up my whole sec 2 life.. How cruel I walked about Everytime Hoping to see your appearance in front of me But everytime just seem to be a wasted trip Haven't there times where you realise my existance in your life? Walking zombie.. I'm just a walking zombie

2003-08-26T02:59:00.000-07:00

Anyway.. Is my blog very screwed up? Because i saw my own blog in XP computer Very screwed okay? Maybe i should try and do better template next time.. I'm such a failure!! =|

2003-08-26T02:57:00.000-07:00

.::Today::. I think Chia is having PMS.. Early in the morning scolding people already.. Opps.. Really.. Then got mass run.. Then i found out.. It had been a long time since i had ran.. Haha.. Then got science As usual.. Was abit slacky.. Then got Chinese.. On the way back Met Lim.. Hahaha.. Then was don't doing whatever crap things.. Hrmps.. Saw Chia.. Ran down to class Hahaha... Chia was in

2003-08-23T09:46:00.000-07:00

.::Harry Potter::. Hey! I finished Harry Potter's 1st book!!! Yeah!! So happy.. So proud of myself also I finished 1st book within 2 days... 2nd book within 3 days.. Hahaha~~~ So pro huh? haha Alright.. I know other people can do better than me.. But for me.. A total hate reading person.. It's really rare alright? Hahaha.. But it's Harry Potter.. That's why huh? Hahaha.. I'm going to the 3rd

2003-08-22T06:37:00.000-07:00

There are times when i really miss you alot Everything swam into my head Yes, i do love you.. I don't know how much more i can last But seeing you ignoring me every day It hurts me so much How many times when i walked pass you I've wish that you could to acknowlegde me Just a simple "hi" or "hello" Or just call me.. But never once You had done that Walking pass you thousands and millions times

2003-08-21T06:28:00.000-07:00

Thinking of you, where ever you are We pray for our sorrows to end, And hope that our hearts will blend, I will step forward to realize this wish And who knows Starting a new journey may not be so hard, Maybe it's already begun There are so many worlds But they share the same sky -- One sky, one destiny

2003-08-21T05:28:00.000-07:00

I'm so proud of myself.. I've finished my Harry Potter and the Chamber of Secrets withing 2/3 days....[so pro right? haha] Soooooooooooooooooooooo nice!! Hahaha.. I'm going to read Harry Potter and the Philosopher's Stone.. I know very funny.. Finish second book the read first book.. Hahaha.. No larh.. The fact is that.. Chuling said she didn't have her first book 'cause she lent it to her cousin

2003-08-21T02:09:00.000-07:00

So happy no mass run today It was raining.. No..it didn't rain It looked like it's going to rain.. So they didn't have mass run for us.. Hahaha.. Just as i hope alright? Because my ankle and knee are very pain 'Cause of yesterday selection.. Ran too much But still didn't get in Whatever.. Used to it already.. This is the third time i'm going through selection.. Oh well.. I'm not good enough..

2003-08-19T06:36:00.000-07:00

Common test finally over!!!!! How many days of torture I'm finally free from it!! Lalala~ Sometimes i think Why do i always trying to torture myself with things that will definitely hurt me.. Maybe i should really just stop all contacts with you.. Even reading what you wrote.. Please someone kindly stop me from reading blog this person write.. I know.. No one else can do that Except for myself

2003-08-18T07:10:00.000-07:00

.::Cuts::. They appeared again Right on the surface on my arm 21 + 21 lines Just 21 + 21 red loving lines But it felt like nothing Nothing Just red loving lines Pressure Stress From everything Water had rolled down Rolled down to my cheeks Every single on contains so much hurts So much stress So much pain So much pressure Crying didn't do anything much Cuttings did better More and more will

2003-08-17T08:36:00.000-07:00

.::Glad::. So glad that i'm able to get through.. Alright.. Friendships are really something which are really mircale If you know that you never belong to friendship you suppose to Then don't try to keep it.. Just let it go.. Or at least Never try to get close to this kind of friendship Because till the end You are the one getting hurt And no one else So what for? Just avoid friendships that

2003-08-16T18:32:00.000-07:00

.::Why::. We used to be close Really close.. But i don't understand what happened after school re-opened Things got real bad when problems came by one by one Was reading your blog When tears were filling my eyes Do you know how much it really hurts when you lost someone that you really treasure? Someone that you can talk to Someone that who can accompany you? *Tears dropped* It hurts me just as

2003-08-14T05:46:00.000-07:00

.::Tears*almost*drop::. During music lesson Requested Sem to play Canon in D.. Nice nice..=Pp Love Sem..haha~ Then requested another song.. I almost cried hearing that song.. Tears were already filling my eyes.. But i just didn't allow it to drop.. That song reminded me of alot of memories.. I love that song.. But..whenever i heard it.. My heart just ache.. And start to cry.. I requested people

2003-08-13T06:40:00.000-07:00

.::Today::. Early in the morning.. Was rushing through my homework Hahaha Oh well.. Then Maths lesson So fun I totally love Lim.. Haha.. Oh well.. I shouldn't say much..=Pp Then got Chinese Chia made us learnt this and that Brain going to burst soon Then she sent me out of class 'Cause i never paste my note book Lala~ Then saw Chan outside She totally so sucky okay? People already outside

2003-08-12T05:22:00.000-07:00

.::Heart-aching::. I really love you Love you so much But my heart is really aching I hate when you are so close to other people But not to me I hate when everyone get to know you Because i only want you to belong to me Impossible Really impossible Everyday i've been watching you Watching you ignoring me Watching you talking to my friends Do you know how much it hurts *Cry* Your friend had told

2003-08-11T04:59:00.000-07:00

.::Leave*me*ALONE::. Please guys Please just leave me alone Now i got my own group of friends Friends that who can really understand me And never will them try to betray me.. Alright? Can't you guys just understand? I hate people who do things behind my back.. And if you have once did that.. Never expect me to trust you again Never expect me to acknowlegde you again I'm cruel and unfair you can

2003-08-09T17:45:00.000-07:00

.::Lala::. Sometime life is really tough I always wish to give it up.. I actually wanted it.. But during that time I found people who concern I found people who told me everything about life But now.. I think i'm losing them Maybe i'm.. Maybe i'm not.. They are really busy with their own things around.. Times i just wish that one of them can just put down her things and talk to me.. But alright

2003-08-08T08:21:00.000-07:00

.::Wonder::. Sometimes I always wonder Why do people know how to treasure each other only when you know you are losing them? Before you know that you are losing them You took them for granted Never treat everything they do as something You want every single one to follow you Wanting everyone to give up something just because of you You are too pampered dear.. That's NO way that i'll give way

2003-08-05T05:00:00.000-07:00

.::Screwed::. I seriously don't know what happened to my life Every single thing got so screwed up alright? Starting of the school only i cried already.. Very very stressed up Science test just now.. Screwed up.. Cry and cry and cry.. I don't know.. My life just suck up.. Then chinese got punish by Chia.. I got 3 Demerit Points by Chia today.. Chia gave 78 Demerit Points in one shot.. One shot

2003-08-04T06:33:00.000-07:00

.::Stress::. Broke down My mind just went crazy I'm really stressed up How bad is my life now? Am i at my lowest? Everything seem not to get in the right way.. My studies.. My sports.. Just every single thing in my life.. Getting wrong way.. How much i wish now there's someone by my side.. Holding me tight in her/his arm.. Telling me everything is alright with him/her around And could lend me a

2003-08-03T06:38:00.000-07:00

You are ice. You have a cold exterior but a warmheart. What element is your soul? brought to you by Quizilla

2003-08-03T06:29:00.000-07:00

You represent... apathy. You don't really show any emotion. You can beconsidered cruel and cold, but you just don'treally care about anything. This is just theway you are... you're quite a challenge to getclose to, and others may perceive you asboring. What feeling do you represent? brought to you by Quizilla

2003-08-03T05:03:00.000-07:00

.::Wrong::. I'm deeply wrong I finally found out Someone could control my life Other than myself Someone is there controlling my life This time is not whether i allow or not This person just control my life Oh well But this time you have made me real heartless Now Who cares whether you give a bloody fuck about me Because now it's my turn to tell you I no more give a bloody fuck about you How

2003-08-02T08:49:00.000-07:00

.::Cry::. Is it a crime to love y*o*u? People sounded like it is I just love y*o*u Why can't people just leave me alone And allow me to continue to love y*o*u People had said alot about y*o*u How y*o*u don't give a fuck about it How y*o*u don't treat me exist But i just love y*o*u I won't allow people to control me I will control myself No one understand my heart Other than myself No one ever

2003-08-01T02:24:00.000-07:00

.::Gosh::. Well.. Why is my whole body injuried? Aiyoyo Let's see My back.. My ankle.. My knee.. Hey! tell me..still got where i haven't injure myself? Hah Oh well.. Time for me to go see doctor.. Right! Thank you lots Xinyun Thank for the knee guard Hah.. It somehow helps.. Yeah! But knee still hurts.. Okay okay.. Still want to thank you once more You are so nice =Pp Today english remedial

2003-07-30T23:18:00.000-07:00

.::STOP::. Stop everything you are trying to do Because you are hurting me Stop everything you wanted to do Because you are hurting me Just stop doing things that concern me Because you are hurting me Please Stop getting into my life.. Because i no more need you Get out of my life now Or you'll suffer more than what i had suffered ---------------------------------------------------------- I

2003-07-28T09:01:00.000-07:00

.::Hurt::. No one understand No one does Because they are not me And they don't willing to understand Hurting me thorough out It really hurts I feel left out When i with you now I really feel left out Well.. I never belong to your world So let's stick to it I shouldn't enter your world Because i never suit to in there We are totally in a different world Partically different You are you..and i

2003-07-27T23:38:00.000-07:00

.::Disappointed::. Sometimes Hoping for too much isn't a good thing Thinking of too much isn't a good thing either Because when things don't turn out what you expect It hurts you deep Just like falling down from a HIGH place It really hurts After waiting for a so long moment After having feelings of nervousness and anxiousness When things just don't turn out what you expect Your whole world will

2003-07-27T00:50:00.000-07:00

.::Pain::. Some pains really hurt Sometimes you might think they don't But they are But seriously These kind of pains you really couldn't bear it They made you collapse They made you fall And the worst is They don't heal They just stay there And stay there forever They just don't heal Ouch... My back hurts again Both left and right This time is really terrible Tomorrow or the day later is my

2003-07-26T03:21:00.000-07:00

.::Dead::. Terrible week i have Totally totally You know Sometime i just hate myself living Hate myself still living in this world Because i suffer I non-stop suffering okay Everyone just loves hurting me I just can't believe How badly my friends can hurt me compare to how much she used to hurt me At least She still bothers about me Not my friends [Oh, then should i still call them friends..No,

2003-07-21T08:37:00.000-07:00

.::Break[Down]::. Almost break down Almost Just a little bit more You can see me fainting Collapsing down in front of everyone 'Cause i can't take it anymore I read everyone's blog Blog that left notes and made me cry Blogs that really hurt me Blogs that my "dears" wrote All made me feel so tired Why is life this way People hurting one another We are all humans aren't we? Why are we hurting each

2003-07-17T08:39:00.000-07:00

.::GoodBye::. It hurts It really does hurt I never expect to get hurt so badly But oh I need to face it anyway I almost broke down today I got hurt again and again My heart was broken again and again My body Scars everywhere But people just hurt me again and again My body really can't take it anymore Please don't get any closer to me Any touch hurts Because the whole of me is injuried Very badly

2003-07-16T01:07:00.000-07:00

.::Why::. Why to left me alone Why to do such cruel things to me You people Just left me alone there Told me to go alone Oh What friends Do you people understand I waited for so long So long Just for you guys to come down But what had you guys done You asked me to come down And what time you actually reached there? Oh well You think it's fun doing this I rushed down Just thinking that i might be

2003-07-11T23:50:00.000-07:00

.::[Forgive]Her::. She's being left alone In a dark place Really dark The way in front is endless She called for help She shouted for help No one yet to come over and help Everyone turned away Everyone brushed her off Day by day The strength inside her disppeared The strength which hold her up till now She already lost the will of surviving In this world She found no more reason to stay on But

2003-07-10T06:04:00.000-07:00

.::Alone::. Alone All by myself My heart felt so lonely Everyone ignored Everyone left me I no more know what i'm looking forward to everyday Is there a true friend with me Is there anyone that would bothers about me I need strength to carry on life I need strength to hang on But i don't have any Allow me to collapse I no more want to face this world I no more want to be alive Because every

2003-07-09T05:03:00.000-07:00

.::Heart-ache*Tired::. Go on and on Living in a world of nothing Every single day of tears Every single day of disappointment I like you Yes I like you On and on Earth turns round and round Every single day of tears Every single day of hurts I miss you Yes I do miss you Losing will of the world Losing will of you Tired I'm really tired Because i like you I do like you Because i miss you I do

2003-07-07T22:02:00.000-07:00

.::Yesterday::. Woke up so early Just to go cherlynn's house Oh well Woke up around 6 plus.. Online for.. Ermz...about 1hr?? Maybe Then went cherlynn's house Eat chocolate Then went and meet gabrielle for lunch Went pizza-hut So expensive okay the food? 10 bucks for 1 meal Oh my gosh I'm totally broke now Hahaha Then eat until so full also Oh yarh Wyman popped in all of a sudden beside me

2003-07-05T07:36:00.000-07:00

.::Tired::. I'm really tired Emotionally Physically Mentally No one seem to understand me No one I felt really tired deep inside But i can't show Because everyone elses were so happy I pretended I acted I hopped around I jumped around I smiled I laughed When i actually don't feel that way I made myself to forget By making myself really tired But everytime when i jumped Deep inside my heart I'm

2003-07-05T06:14:00.000-07:00

.::Today::. Didn't go for church Was tired Slept all the way Oh! I got my guestbook! Hahaha Must go tag tag! Ha.. Today totally doing nothing So boring Was waiting for message around But.. -Disappointed- Sometime i wonder why [He] somehow doesn't reply my SMS Really sad sometime I got really disappointed every morning Because i don't see [his] reply Oh.. What can i do Everything is up to God

2003-07-04T23:54:00.000-07:00

.::Smile::. Yesterday youth day Went school with home clothings Then had literature..english..maths.. Suppose to have telematch But because it rained Then we had science instead Then got concert.. My gosh.. All sec 1s..=| Have been waiting for the senior performance But.. -Disapointed- Then went cherlynn's house Ate chocolate again -Giggle- Watch abit show Then went shower Met gabrielle and

2003-07-02T00:53:00.000-07:00

.::Without your love::. I was so lonely until I met you babe You were the reason and I wanted you to stay Now it seems so long and you're back again You were my first love you'll always be the one You light my darkness and You're brighter than the sun I'm alive when you're in my world baby I'd love to promise you my heart I never want to be apart Without your love without your love My lonely

2003-07-01T05:08:00.000-07:00

"44 + 6 scars on my hand It appeared on the 27th of june 44 + 6 cuts The most cuts that i've ever done to myself But i can say It doesn't hurt at all Because hurts in my heart are far too much compared to my hand But that was on the 27th" [Thoughts on the 27th of june]

2003-07-01T05:02:00.000-07:00

.::Smile::. We met again Thank God for today My prayer came true I'm really happy Thank God I really like you Really like you How are things going to develop? I'm waiting *God, thank You for today. I'm really happy. Everything that had happened, is thank to You. Lord, thank for being there whenever i need You. I really feel better. Thank You for giving me all these. Amen.*

2003-07-01T04:58:00.000-07:00

.::Smile::. .::Happy::. Today's school was quite okay Cause it felt very short As only 3 subjects today Oh well! Then wanqi, cherlynn and me went town Met wyman -smile- Then went movie together Watched bruce almighty So funny okay? [I got the power..] Hahahaha Then went breeks So wyman needed to take his pay [Oh, or is it?] Well whatever Then he treated us drinks And i already said "i don't want

2003-06-30T06:24:00.000-07:00

*Miss*You* xiang ni xiang de xin hao tong ni ming bai ma ni le jie ma wo hao xi huan ni zhen de hao xi huan ni dan que xi huan de hao xin ku bu zhi dao ni xin li zen yang xiang bu zhi dao xian zai ying gai zen yang zuo wo zi neng deng ye bu zi dao zai deng sen mo jiu si zai deng xin zheng de hao tong hao tong hao tong hao tong...

2003-06-30T01:44:00.000-07:00

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2003-06-30T01:38:00.000-07:00

LOVE starts with a SMILE , grows with a KISS , and ends with a TEAR ..... DON'T cry over anyone who won't cry over you. Good FRIENDS are hard to find, harder to leave, and impossible to forget. You can only go as far as you push. ACTIONS speak louder than words. The HARDEST thing to do is watch the one you love, love somebody else. DON'T let the past hold you back, you're missing the good stuff

2003-06-29T05:05:00.000-07:00

I miss [you] When will we meet again? Probably never Time fades everything? Maybe But i wished Time will never fade this *Miss you* *Miss you*

2003-06-29T04:55:00.000-07:00

.::Smile::. Yesterday Was senior teams matches Well Zhaoyong's group lost 3 matches [I think so] The other group lost 2 and drew 1 But well done! At least you guys won Hahaha Oh well Then we cheered like crazy people For SK and PL Hahaha Now then i understand SK is very close with PL Oh oh oh Yarh! I "liked" this guy in PL Admired actually Cute Especially his eyes But who can be cuter the [him]?