Saturday, October 04, 2003
Gosh..
Finally finally my Chinese paper 1 and Literature..
Literature this subject really stressed me up alright..
Here haven't teach finish..there haven't teach finish..
Hai..rush here and there..
Finally it had passed huh?
Great great.
You know.
Sometime i would
love to suggest something to Crescent
"
Wouldn't you people might as well put English paper 1 with Literature and Chinese paper 1?"
[Sarcastic]
Hahaha..serious okay?
They like want us to break our hands like that..
Chinese composition and letter writing like not enough to strain our hands like that.
Still so cruelly include Literature?
So.as i say..you might as well include English composition in?
That would be great yarh?
Can really break our hands..and..we wouldn't need to take exam...
Alright alright..
Hahahaha..
Should talk about what happened yesterday..
Chinese letter-writing i wrote..
erm..
3 pages?..
Composition..
wrote..erm..
2 1/2?
The 1/2 is use the upper secondary composition paper one..
[Anyway..]
[I actually like to use to upper-secondary composition paper..]
[It looked neater..and nicer to read..really!]
And then Literature..
I'm rather proud of myself..
Hahaha..why?
Let's see..
I did Antigone first..
Wrote around 2 pages.
But shorter..[a little bit only larh!]
Then did The Unexpected..
Wrote..around..
2 pages..[longer a little bit..]
The pro part came..
Last i did Unseen Poem..
Not much..
First question i did half a page only..
Second question..
1 1/2 page..
Hahahaha..super pro alright?
Oh..whatever huh..
Then went home lorh..
Took 171..
Then reached home...
Studied science..
The mommy called..
Said Grandpa in hospital..
So she came home right away..
And then she and my daddy went malaysia yesterday's very night..
Left me and my brothers at home..
Did eat much of my dinner..
Don't know why..just feeling very full..
They asked me whether i want to go..
But i say got exam..so didn't go lorh..
Pray for my Grandpa..
Hope nothing happen to him..
God..
Please...bless him..
Allow nothing to happen to him..
Amen
Then..slept..till just now.
Just woke up..
Then find that things aren't the same..
So quiet the house..
My second brother went back camp..
Then..
My parents weren't at home.
So quiet..
Not like how it used to be..
Sunday was never so quiet..
...never...
<= Fr0zen* Tears* =>
10/04/2003 07:48:00 PM
My Immortal
my immortal
i'm so tired of being here
suppressed by all of my childish fears
and if you have to leave
i wish that you would just leave
because your presence still lingers here
and it won't leave me alone
these wounds won't seem to heal
this pain is just too real
there's just too much that time cannot erase
when you cried i'd wipe away all of your tears
when you'd scream i'd fight away all of your fears
and i've held your hand through all of these years
but you still have all of me
you used to captivate me
by your resonating light
but now i'm bound by the life you left behind
your face it haunts my once pleasant dreams
your voice it chased away all the sanity in me
these wounds won't seem to heal
this pain is just too real
there's just too much that time cannot erase
when you cried i'd wipe away all of your tears
when you'd scream i'd fight away all of your fears
and i've held your hand through all of these years
but you still have all of me
i've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
and though you're still with me
i've been alone all along
<= Fr0zen* Tears* =>
10/04/2003 07:27:00 PM
Whatever is with me now
I don't understand..
Stress had overcome me..
Really overcome me..
How emotional am i now?
I cry..and just cry for nothing.
But yet..
I dragged my friends down with me
I'm not a good friend am i?
I'm not..
That's loads of time
Loads and loads of time
I wish you would be there for me
When i cry..
I wish that you could console me
When i have difficulties
I wish that you would say that you would lead me out of it
But no..
Never once that you had appeared..
Last few weeks of your life in Crescent
I don't know how much it meant to you
But..to me
I just wish it to be the last few weeks of my life
What's the use of staying without you?
You were the source of my happiness
When i'm stress
When i'm sad
When i'm angry
When i'm depressed
When i'm upset
You were the only one to brighten my day
Just a simple eye-contact with you
I can be happy for the rest of my day..
But what would happened when you leave?
No more happiness?
Maybe..
[But i couldn't do anything]
[Not now..not later..]
Though
I'm glad
I could at least get over same things
The song..
Yes..the song..
I no more cry listening to it
But one thing that had yet to go..
Is how you appear in my mind when i hear it..
Now..
I realised
Not only 1 song that would affect me..
It's 2..
It was the song that you introduced to me
You said it's your favourite song..remember?
I don't used to like it..
But now..
I don't know why..
I somehow..have feelings for it..
It affects me..
Just like the previous song..
But i yet to cry for it..
The lyrics of the song..
Is nice..really nice...
<= Fr0zen* Tears* =>
10/04/2003 07:26:00 PM
Monday, September 29, 2003
Loads of people chose to leave me now
In these moment of stress, depression and everything
The most important moment of my life
Yet people rather leave me than staying by my side to support me
I need them well..
I need them badly..
Every single of them
But..
Why must you people choose to leave me..
It just hurt to so much to see close friend leaving me when i'm walking down the most difficult period of my life..
Can't you just accompany me to walk down this stressing route down my life
I just simply need someone to walk down the route with me..
Have been crying and crying and crying..
Exam time periods are so stress..
Stressed up my life..
Can that "someone" just..appear?
I need someone to talk to
Not talk to..
Just sit beside me and accompany me..
I don't wish to be alone
But..i just don't wish to talk..
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<= Fr0zen* Tears* =>
9/29/2003 07:02:00 AM
=> W a n t e d <=
-> M i s s i n g <-
-> i n <-
-> S c h o o l <-
[When are you coming back]
[There is a letter waiting for its owner to claim it]
[Come back soon]
[It's waiting for you]
[So am i]
Searching high and low
Low and high
You know people..
I suddenly found out so really chio and cute seniors..
Hahahaha
They include..
//Mingshan//
//Peishan//
//Denise//
//Geokcheng//
etc..
You see..
They are really cute seniors in Crescent yarh?
Look out for them..
Hahaha..
"Lady in me Day" today..
Woo hoo
That's where i saw chio chio seniors around..
What had got into me these few days?
"No idea"
Times when i miss you so badly i wish to see you right away
"I'm crazy"
I looked high and low for you
Low and high for you
Just for the sake of seeing you
"I love You"
Don't leave again will you
It's so hard to see you leave again
"I miss You"
[Hard to let go]
<= Fr0zen* Tears* =>
9/29/2003 06:28:00 AM
