Thursday, September 25, 2003
How hard things had been..
No more idea what really cheers me up in school..
[Seeing funny colours appearing on my keyboard..]
[So ghostly..grey..pink..blue..am i really so stressed?]
Wrote letters yesterday..
Found out that how long since i last wrote..
Well..
Thank you..that's really nice of you..
[Are people really so nice? Because i just don't get use to people's concern..]
Today came to school..
Wanted to pass someone letter..
But..
Wasn't in school..
No idea..should i still pass it to her?
[No use..]
Literature..
English..
Maths..[test]
Recess..[Was really looking out for you.."why am i so silly".."you are not even in school"..]
Science..[Sort of really bad mood okay? My CA marks suck!]
English..
Music..[Currently..just finished my test..i suck!]
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Remedial..[Later..doing comprehension i think..]
Computer Lab..[Trying to finishing my Web..]
Home..[...slack?]
-> Day Ended <-
I really need so to get use to you not being in school..
Whatever..what can i say?
Because can i ever make you stay?
In school?
In Singapore?
I can't..just can't..
But i want to see you..
Almost every single second..every single minute..every single day..
C a n i ? C a n i ? C a n i ?
It is choice..
For me to make..
Even if it hard..tough..
I still had to make
What's g o o d for you?
What's b e t t e r for you?
What's b e s t for you?
I don't know..
There's no perfect choice in this world..
Either you gain something..or you lose something..
It might be precious
*You never know*
But what's b e s t for you..
Is not to be known..
Until..you had made it..
But then..
It's too late..
No turning back..
[Understand?]
Two "L"
I didn't even realise it..
Sub-conscious?
<= Fr0zen* Tears* =>
9/25/2003 10:06:00 PM
Wednesday, September 24, 2003
Cried again..
Why..
Last time i cried reading all the letters..
Now..
I still cry reading all the letters..
How long had all of them been..
So long..so long..
"I hardly treat juniors so well..you must be honour.."
One sentence that you said to me..
I'm honour..
No..i USED to be very honour..
But not now..
How nice you used to be..
No..!
You are still nice now..
Just that i had ruined all those..
Can you..
For once..
I can't get over you
Just simply can't get over you
Or..
Why am i still crying reading your letters?
12 Oct . 12 Oct . 12 Oct . 12 Oct . 12 Oct . 12 Oct . 12 Oct . 12 Oct .
12 Oct . 12 Oct . 12 Oct . 12 Oct . 12 Oct . 12 Oct . 12 Oct . 12 Oct .
12 Oct . 12 Oct . 12 Oct . 12 Oct . 12 Oct . 12 Oct . 12 Oct . 12 Oct .
12 Oct . 12 Oct . 12 Oct . 12 Oct . 12 Oct . 12 Oct . 12 Oct . 12 Oct .
12 Oct . 12 Oct . 12 Oct . 12 Oct . 12 Oct . 12 Oct . 12 Oct . 12 Oct .
12 Oct . 12 Oct . 12 Oct . 12 Oct . 12 Oct . 12 Oct . 12 Oct . 12 Oct .
12 Oct . 12 Oct . 12 Oct . 12 Oct . 12 Oct . 12 Oct . 12 Oct . 12 Oct .
12 Oct . 12 Oct . 12 Oct . 12 Oct . 12 Oct . 12 Oct . 12 Oct . 12 Oct .
12 Oct . 12 Oct . 12 Oct . 12 Oct . 12 Oct . 12 Oct . 12 Oct . 12 Oct .
12 Oct . 12 Oct . 12 Oct . 12 Oct . 12 Oct . 12 Oct . 12 Oct . 12 Oct .
12 Oct . 12 Oct . 12 Oct . 12 Oct . 12 Oct . 12 Oct . 12 Oct . 12 Oct .
12 Oct . 12 Oct . 12 Oct . 12 Oct . 12 Oct . 12 Oct . 12 Oct . 12 Oct .
12 Oct . 12 Oct . 12 Oct . 12 Oct . 12 Oct . 12 Oct . 12 Oct . 12 Oct .
12 Oct . 12 Oct . 12 Oct . 12 Oct . 12 Oct . 12 Oct . 12 Oct . 12 Oct .
Can i just once get you off out of my mind?
But..i just don't wish to..
<= Fr0zen* Tears* =>
9/24/2003 05:47:00 AM
Tuesday, September 23, 2003
Let this be the last time for me to love you again..
Just one last time for me to tell you i love you..
It's really pain to keep it down to heart
Because..
Everytime when i see you
I wish to place the happiness on my face
But..i can't
I wish to jump around
But..i can't
I wish to start telling all my friends that you are there
But..i can't
I cried
Not less than ten times
Not less than twenty times
Just for you..
Now that you are leaving..
I cried again..
Not once
Not twice
But already 3 times
I cried again just now
Talking about you..
Maybe i shan't do that anymore
Every single times you are in my conversation
I'll eventually start crying..
Last time..
"I Love You"
May you really understand what it really meant now..
I don't say it for the sake of saying it..
But it comes from right down my heart..
"I Love You"
<= Fr0zen* Tears* =>
9/23/2003 04:59:00 AM
Monday, September 22, 2003
Some say love, it is a river
That drowns the tender reed
Some say love, it is a razor
That leaves your soul to bleed
Some say love, it is a hunger
An endless aching need
I say love, it is a flower
And you its only seed
It's the soul afraid of dreaming,
That never learns to dance
And the soul afraid of waking,
That never takes the chance
It's the one, who won't be taken
Who cannot seem to give
And the soul afraid of dying,
That never learns to live
When the night has been too lonely
And the road has been too long
When you feel that love is only
For the lucky and the strong
Just remember in the winter
Far beneath the bitter snow
Lies the seed that with the sun's love
In the spring becomes the rose
<= Fr0zen* Tears* =>
9/22/2003 04:10:00 AM
Sunday, September 21, 2003
Kill me if you can
Not like anyone going to bother
How much tears had i dropped?
Just because you are leaving?
Yesterday
This very morning
But have you given any attention?
To my entries?
To me?
How much cold-shoulders are you going to give me?
Ignore me as you like
Dao me as you can
It's not like i'm going to care..
Juniors could give you more attentions than me
After so much longer that i've known you
I suck
Alright
The juniors rawk and i suck
Happy aren't you?
Go on and enjoy your remaining days with them
Give me a worst memory that you can ever give
Memories of yours is NOT going to be extend
Neither will they going to be completed
I'll destroy them
One by one
And give the rest of your memories in Crescent to your beloved juniors
And leave Crescent as soon as possible accompany by your beloved juniors' memories since you had dreaded to leave so much
And leave here and NEVER come back
And never to appear in Crescent during my days
How silly of me to cry for you
How silly of me..
<= Fr0zen* Tears* =>
9/21/2003 12:21:00 AM
