Saturday, September 20, 2003
I almost cry reading my own entry
How funny..
I almost cry on what i've wrote by myself
You played that song
Though it wasn't for me
But..
You had played the song that i wanted..
You had fulfilled my request..unknowningly..
Well..
Thank you..
I almost break down when i heard that song..that tune..
It had been really long that i had hear it from you..
This had been the second time..
But non of the time you had realise my existence..
Well..i'm there..just that you didn't realise..
I had been longing to hear this song again from you
And yes..i had it today..
Though it was only a rather short part..
But..i'm more than satisfy on what had been given to me
The whole trip back..
I had been thinking of you
Thinking of you..
How i met you
How i started to like you
How i started to write letters to you
How i started to fall in love with you
How i got in all the troubles with you
How you first started to speak to me
How you started your letter
How you end your letter
How you had given me trainings
How you handed me my homework
What you had first said to me
What you had first given to me
What you had said to me
What you had expected from me
What you had promise me
What was the first word that you had said
Where i first met you
Where you had first talked to me
Where you handed me my homework
Where did we had my trainings
When i had started to write to you
When you had first talked to me
When you started to avoid me
When you started to give me trainings
All these things had been swimming in my brain
Surrounding me..
Then i really can't hold it anymore
The whole thing turned so dramatically..
You used to be so nice to me..
Then you started to avoid me
Then you started to dao me
Then you started to hurt me
I finally broke down in the bus..
Tears rolled down..
I don't know why all these happen..
Because it wasn't supposed to turn out this way..
I'm in fault..
Of my implusiveness..
I had not been concentrating on things today..
'Cause i had just been thinking of you
I know there's nothing i could change now
But at least
I know how to treasure what had been left of you..for me..
No more you in my life few weeks later..
No more "oh-my-gosh"-ing few weeks later..
No more jumping in happiness few weeks later..
No more blushing few weeks later..
No more urge on rushing down on mon and fri to see you few weeks later..
No more anything about you few weeks later..
Because..
You had left..
G O N E*
I cried writing this entry..
Reminded me of all the past
How much time had i left with you
That i could complete this memories of you in me?
Not much time left
Only a few weeks
To extend those memories
1 more beautiful memory is what i need..
To complete this memories of you
Will you give it to me?
I h a t e t o s e e y o u l e a v e
N o w
E v e n t w o y e a r s l a t e r
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9/20/2003 07:45:00 AM
Friday, September 19, 2003
Lots of things had happened these few days
Mostly happy things..
I had laughed rather lots these few days
Happiness was really a sweet thing
A really sweet thing..
But how much i hope that these moment never fade
These moment never pass
Because
I'll no more enjoy all these
After a few more weeks
Because the sources of my happiness
Are gone..
Maybe it because of this
I've been treasuring the time left
How long more..
Can i enjoy all these?
How much more longer can i blush when i have eyes-contact with you?
How much more longer can i get nervous because of you?
How much more longer can watch you around the school?
How much more longer can i see you laugh...see you smile?
How much more longer can i laugh because of you?
How much more longer can i "oh-my-gosh" when i see you?
How much more longer can you be the topic of my conversation?
How much more longer can i be this happy after seeing you?
No more
Not anymore after a few weeks more
You would be gone
No more in Crescent..
No more blushing on my face
No more nervous seeing anyone
No more desire to get down
No more "oh-my-gosh"
No more topic on you
No more such happiness
N o m o r e
B e c a u s e y o u a r e n o m o r e h e r e
I've learnt to treasure time that have been left for me/you
Had learnt to treasure what before it has gone
Time passes so fast
1 year and 9 months had passed
I had know you
Around one year
One year
Considering it long/short?
Long..
The kind of troubles i had got in with you
The amount of time i had spent just to solve it
The number of things that had happened
Hurting..or happy
Can you remember?
I can remember it vividly
Every single thing you said to me
Every single word you had spoken to me
I had remember right down my heart
Short..
1 year passed so fast
You are leaving soon
I used to think that this day will not come so fast
But..it was more approaching..
Nearer and nearer
The fear of losing the sight of you got stronger and stronger as days passed by
I don't know how much more time could i enjoy the presence of you
What i know was
I had to treasure this time now
Or
I'll never had it again
The no. of months
The no. of weeks
The no. of days
The no. of hours
The no. of minutes
The no. of seconds
That you would leave this place
Just like arrows peircing through
My last request from you
Just a song from you
A song play using the piano from you
The song
You know what the song is
Please
Just one time
Play it just for me
I really don't request much more
Just a simply song..a simply tune..
*Please..
*You know who you are
*Give me a reply
I w i s h f o r t h e b e s t
T h e b e s t i n y o u r e v e r y t h i n g
F o r t h e r e s t o f y o u r l i f e
[ D e d i c a t e d t o t h i s s p e c i a l y o u i n m y h e a r t ]
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9/19/2003 03:32:00 AM
Sunday, September 14, 2003
-Disappointed-
-No comment-
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9/14/2003 05:16:00 AM
