Friday, August 29, 2003
What's wrong with my life?
I shouldn't had went back
I shouldn't had see him
Why..why..why..
You are the first person that i wish to see when i reached school
You are the first person that i looked out for
You are the first person i wish so much to talk to
You are the first person in my mind when i'm leaving
You are the first person that i wish to meet
You are the only person in my mind the whole day
You are the only person that i wish to message
But i know
Nothing can get back the same
Because it's my fault then
What's with me!!!!
That's why i had said..
I seriously hate memories
Going back just remind me of memories
Maybe next year i won't go back
Depend..
*Thank for asking for me
*Sorry for dao-ing you
Teachers' Day celebration today
Early in the morning..
Walked up and down 3 times..
Gosh..
So tired..
Eh..don't think only 3 times
More than that okay!
Then saw Chia..
Stupid okay?
She started scolding me for my socks
Whatever okay?
Then the day started
Started with the sec 4s passing down houses to sec 3s..
Followed up with our Aces Day thing..
Was doing kick boxing..
Oh..whatever it that..
Totally lame alright..
Anyway..
*Sorry for hitting your head Xiaomin..hee~*
Then got the stupid house election
Shan't talk about it
Totally totally..
Next was recess..
Went down
Then i saw her..
Hahaha..
Was so happy..i got a freak out anyway
Luckily i didn't shout alright?
Hahahaha..or it will be so malu
I almost got asthma attack then
Hahahahahahahahahaha
*Laugh out Loud*
Then went up for concert
Was quite alright
My class' dance rocks okay?
After school
Went back Siling
Was chatting around
But only saw a few teachers..
*Hem*
Then saw my..*hem*
Well..filled my mind whole day
Don't know what's with me also
Then went to my friend's house
Was sleeping down there
Slept for..1 hour ++++
Then..went back home
Was so tired
Mentally..
Physically..
Emotionally..
Well..
I'll just sleep all the way to tomorrow
Just don't wish to think of anything..
I just hate myself..
Whatever is with my life
I just wish that..
I could get everything down right
I wish to talk to *hem*
I wish to talk to my romeo
God..
Can i?
[Fr0zen*in*Tears]
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8/29/2003 05:00:00 AM
Thursday, August 28, 2003
[
Broken*Down]
Why..
Why to force me
I've already tried so hard to control myself
But every single words from you were forcing my tears out..
I've told myself
Not to cry..not to cry
Because i can't cry
But..still..you forced my tears out..
Is this what you were trying to force out from me?
Now..i can tell you
I can collapse right in front of you
And i can just stop studying..
And show you what i'm made of..
If that is what you are wanting out from me..
F.UCK F.uck FUCK Fuck
Have i even offended you?
Yesterday i didn't even say anything alright?
And today
You are like blaming me for dao-ing you?!
I dao-ed you?
Hello dear
This morning i've talked to you alright
And you are the one who ignored me okay?
Recess time
You stared at me
And turned away from us
What's the world coming to dear?
I didn't do anything!!!!!!
F.uck
Then to start to talk behind my back
What can i say?
What can i do?
You are doing all these to me when i'm at my lowest..
And when i didn't even do anything to you
If you are blaming us for not waiting for you
I'm sorry
We had realised it
But i'm really broken down at that time
And i don't wish to stay in class a moment more
I really didn't expect it alright?
You can do that to your friends
Talking behind us..
Very well..go on..and you'll never stay
My life is really screwed up alright?
Everything just can't get into the right place
I really need someone by my side
But..non of them seem to be noticing it..
How much i wish one of you can just listen to me for once
Because i really need someone by my side
Times and times
I wish that i could just kill myself and that's it
Or..sometime i've been wondering
Why should i even be born it this world?
Making me suffer..
Suffer from depression and everything..
Do anyone actually understand my life
No..no one
Everyone just telling me..
Telling me to treasure my own life
But..how could i treasure my own life
When my life is..
So miserable and depressed?
Treasure my life?
I might as well end it..
F.uck
Good luck to you!
Hope that you passed your..grade 6..
Grade 6 yarh?
Hahaha..=Pp
Have been calling you..
To wish to good luck
But no one picked up..
Maybe i've called too late..
Sorry..was busy with something..
But still..really good luck to you
[Fr0zen*in*Tears]
[Because*I*love*You]
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8/28/2003 02:02:00 AM
Wednesday, August 27, 2003
I looked like a walking zombie..
Don't i?
I cried very easily..
I got mood swing very easily..
Everything's coming up my life..
Screwing up my whole sec 2 life..
How cruel
I walked about
Everytime
Hoping to see your appearance in front of me
But everytime just seem to be a wasted trip
Haven't there times where you realise my existance in your life?
Walking zombie..
I'm just a walking zombie around the school without you
How many times i've hope to talk to you
Or just even one glance..
I felt happy than anything..
Though times i really act as if i don't care about your existance of you
But that's obviously not what is my feeling inside me..
Because i love you just as much
Because you are my
ONLY romeo..
I shouldn't talk much about today
Totally just screwed up..
Morning wanted to talk to her
But something screwed up again
Through out the freaking day..
I got really bad mood swing..
Had big conflict with my friends
I'm really sorry dears..
I don't know what happened to myself..
I miss my her
I miss my darling
I miss my romeo
Everything suddenly came up to me..
I'm really sorry..
I didn't mean it
Really didn't mean it..
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8/27/2003 04:13:00 AM
Tuesday, August 26, 2003
Anyway..
Is my blog very screwed up?
Because i saw my own blog in XP computer
Very screwed okay?
Maybe i should try and do better template next time..
I'm such a failure!!
=|
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8/26/2003 02:59:00 AM
.::
Today::.
I think Chia is having PMS..
Early in the morning scolding people already..
Opps..
Really..
Then got mass run..
Then i found out..
It had been a long time since i had ran..
Haha..
Then got science
As usual..
Was abit slacky..
Then got Chinese..
On the way back
Met Lim..
Hahaha..
Then was don't doing whatever crap things..
Hrmps..
Saw Chia..
Ran down to class
Hahaha...
Chia was in extreme PMS today..
Maybe is DMS..or OMS..
Hahaha..
Was scolding our class..
Haiz..so sad alright..
Own form teacher scolding and degrading form class..
='(
Sometime i don't know why she had to do that..
She's a nice teacher..
But just that she really get unreasonable sometime
Why..our own form teacher..
Haiz..
Then she took over PE period..
Oh well..
Studying chinese..
Test coming soon..follow by end-of-year..
So rush..
Then recess..
After is literature..
Hah..forgot to bring my textbook..
Hahahaha~
Oh gosh..
Then watched this cartoon..
Ermz..what's that title again?
Whatever okay?
Oh yah..
We got our class photos and netball photos today!!!
Then was going around asking people to sign..
Like autograph session like that..
Hahaha..
After literature was CS..
Down there slacking like hell..
Then went back to class..
Continue our autograph session..
Blah blah blah..
Then have to go down for this stupid "concert"..
I almost fall asleep in the hall..
Went back class even before the "concert" end..
Then went back to do the suspense story..
Argue and argue and argue..
Hahah..
Can't decide on the story..
So leave it for tomorrow to do the ending..
So went home with Chuling..
As usual..
Took 171..
Sleeping in the bus
When woke up..
I found out my hair was so messy..
Hahaha..
Embarrassing okay?
Haha..whatever..
Went and bought a tub of ice-cream..
Yummy yummy..=Pp
Reached home around 5..
Was online from then..
Later..
I'll go finish my Harry Potter..[though i only finish 1/3 of it..]
I will finish
And i must finish
Lala!
Then i going to do my chinese..
Test coming!!!
No more slacking okay?!
Well..
Am i that untrustworthy?
Why have you to ask question in that kind of tone?
I bear for the consequences of what i've said or done
It hurts me so much giving me that tone..
All right
It might meant nothing to you
But have you yet to understand how much it hurt from what you said or done?
[Fr0zen*in*Tears]
[Because*I*love*You]
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8/26/2003 02:57:00 AM
