Fr0zen

Saturday, August 23, 2003

.::Harry Potter::.

Hey!
I finished Harry Potter's 1st book!!!
Yeah!!
So happy..
So proud of myself also
I finished 1st book within 2 days...
2nd book within 3 days..
Hahaha~~~
So pro huh? haha
Alright..
I know other people can do better than me..
But for me..
A total hate reading person..
It's really rare alright?
Hahaha..
But it's Harry Potter..
That's why huh?
Hahaha..
I'm going to the 3rd already..
Haven't got the book yet..
Still with Chuling..
She hasn't give me the book..
She better remember to bring it on Monday..
Or..haha~
Oh well..=Pp
Harry Potter is so nice..
JK. Rowling is a good writer..excellent writer

For you information.
I'm using a lab top now..
So..ermz..
Cool you can say..
But abit uncomfortable..
'Cause i'm not use to using lab top.
Yah..
Alright..
240803 was AAW..
I don't to say it today...or yesterday..
So i might as well write the date..
Oh well..
Ermz..
Went school around 7++
Chia order..
Alright..
Then went to move water to the PAT..
Ermz..it actually didn't turn out the way that i thought it should be
I thought it will be bigger..
But sadly..
Quite small..
Can't even fit the whole school..
About half of the hall only..
*Disappointed*
Then was walking about the school..
Trying to look for stall where i might be interested..
But in the end
I'm really not interested..
Was just walking here and there..
Trying to suntan myself..
Hahaha~
Let's what i bought..
3 don't know what....
Forgot the name..
Then one bubble tea..
Then no more liao..
Really wasn't interested
Walked here and there..
Slacking and rotting..
In the end
Went up to class
Started to sleep in class
So comfortable
Slept for around 1 hour
Woke up
Chuling and Theresa were don't know where
Waited for them in class
Came back
Then we went down again
The Sun then was so warming
[Obviously..'cause i just came out of air-conditional room then..]
Was wondering around the school
It got more crowded i think..
Wondered and wondered..
Nothing to do..
Then went out..
Chuling supposed to have tuition..
Then she told her tuition teacher to postpone it to sunday..
So we went town..
Walked all the way from FarEast to Heeren
Wondering around
Then went and took neoprints
Turned out quite alright..
Except for 1 quite plain..
Then was rotting around
Then we went to Cine
See movie time slot
In the end
Found out that the movie we wanted is not avaliable there..
Oh well..
Then walked back to Heeren..
Saw Tension..
Ermz..*Hem*
Walked all the way back to Takashimaya..
Don't what we are doing down there also..
Bought Sundae.
Yummy yummy..!
After that..went back home by 171..
Was about to rain..
Sky was so so so so dark then..
Went Chuling alighted..
It was raining so heavily..
*Cold*
Then slept all the way back to Yishun..
Walked around North Point
For time to pass
Went and see handphones
So expensive..
Haiz..
No money to buy new phone..
Then waited for my mom to reach
Was reading Harry Potter
Then ate dinner with my mom..
In the end
Bought something
And went back..
Was reading Harry Potter from less the half after i reached home
Until only just now..
Then went to shower..
Now my eyes are so tired..
Was reading for so long..
Should rest my eyes..
Yes..i should..
Hey..I LOVE LAP TOP..
Hahaha..
So cool!!
=Pp

I love you
Really love you..
Why must you always dao me so badly..
Always..everytime..
It hurts me so much..
So hard to give me a simple acknowledgement?
Just a simple "hi" or "hello"..
Will it cause you your life?
Alright..
I know i meant nothing to you
But you meant so much to me..
By now..
You should know my feelings towards you..
They are just so obvious..
They are just so deep..
They are just so real..
Understand me will you
And stop all the dao-ness
I really don't need it..

*Fr0zen*
*L0ve*

<= Fr0zen* Tears* => 8/23/2003 09:46:00 AM

Friday, August 22, 2003

There are times when i really miss you alot
Everything swam into my head
Yes, i do love you..
I don't know how much more i can last
But seeing you ignoring me every day
It hurts me so much
How many times when i walked pass you
I've wish that you could to acknowlegde me
Just a simple "hi" or "hello"
Or just call me..
But never once
You had done that
Walking pass you thousands and millions times
But you treat me as a invisible one
How much has it hurt me?
Sometime i've thought..
Is it really a very wrong doing to fall in love with you?
Maybe you are the really wrong person that i shouldn't fall on..
Because what i need isn't all these dao-ness from you..
I don't know whether you know about my feelings towards you.
But how much i wish you could just stop dao-ing me..
Because each and every single time i walked pass you
You just walked pass like i don't even exist
Thousands of arrow piercing through my heart..
Will you one day apply some healing lotion to my heart?
No..i don't even need healing lotion..
Just a simple asking from you can heal my heart..
Because you are you
Because you are my romeo..
Because i love you..

.::Today::.

Had literature as first lesson
Was going through the question from common test..
Oh well
I think i'm going to fail
Haha~
Then Chan was involved in the AAW..
So didn't come up..
So happy..
Hahah~
Then got maths
Was doing this elevation & depression angle..
Hahaha..
Depression..suit me alot huh?
Oh well..
Then went for recess..
Was hoping to see her..
But disappointed..
Haiz..
Then got science..
Totally boring!!
Almost fall asleep..
Well..
Then got English..
Since Chan was busy..
Was slacking all the way..
And yah..
We voted for the teacher's voting thing.
Lim got in 6/7 categories..
Hahaha~
The most caring teacher..most motivating teacher...most interesting teacher...nicest smile[erhx..]...greatest impact teacher..&..most patient teacher..
Hahah~
Cool alright..
She got in everything except for the most talented teacher..
Hahah..she's not talented..sadly..hah..
Aiyah..
Then the rest don't want to mention..
Because i can't even remember..
Oh well..
Then Music 'cause Sem involved in AAW..
So not free..
We got 4 long.....free periods..
Hahaha~
Oh well
We were talking about ghost stories..
So freaky..
Hahaha~
Alright..shan't talk about it..
Time passed very fast..
End of school
Went to eat lunch..[actually didn't eat..just walk here and there..]
Then on my way back class..
Saw Lim..
Was telling her about the voting things..
She was like.."HUH?!"
Hahah..big reaction huh..
Then was saying..
"Good ones or bad ones..?"
Hahaha..then i was saying while walking off..
"No la no la..negative ones..hahaha!"
Then she said..
"I kill you arh.."..
Hahaha..
Lala!
Then went back class..
Was slacking and rotting till 3..
Went down looked for Theresa..
Took so long to come out..
Then went town
Heeren..
Went and bought badana..
Bought a light purple colour one..
Look abit sucky on us..
But..haha~
Alright..
Then went to take neoprints..
As usual..
Was totally screwed up..
Hahaha~
Theresa wrote today's date as..
22 Sept..
No bad sia
Can predict future..
Hahaha..
Then went home
Took 171
My neck was so pain after the nap i took
Hahaha..
'Cause was lying on the window..
So..caused it so pain
Reached home around 7..
Watched show..reading Harry Potter book 1..
Ate my dinner..[which is cup noodle..ha]
Then took shower
Now..
Was down here slacking larh..
Don't know what to do also..
Nothing to do..
Hotmail is a little bit screwed up..
Haiz..stupid..
Okay..
Let's see tomorrow..
Got AAW
Don't know what i'm going to do..
So boring..
Haiz..
Surely will be slacking down there..
Lala~
Whatever..

[Fr0zen*in*Tears]
[Because*I*love*You]

<= Fr0zen* Tears* => 8/22/2003 06:37:00 AM

Thursday, August 21, 2003

Thinking of you, where ever you are

We pray for our sorrows to end,
And hope that our hearts will blend,
I will step forward to realize this wish

And who knows
Starting a new journey may not be so hard,
Maybe it's already begun

There are so many worlds
But they share the same sky --
One sky, one destiny

<= Fr0zen* Tears* => 8/21/2003 06:28:00 AM

I'm so proud of myself..
I've finished my Harry Potter and the Chamber of Secrets withing 2/3 days....[so pro right? haha]
Soooooooooooooooooooooo nice!!
Hahaha..
I'm going to read Harry Potter and the Philosopher's Stone..
I know very funny..
Finish second book the read first book..
Hahaha..
No larh..
The fact is that..
Chuling said she didn't have her first book 'cause she lent it to her cousin and never return her
So i started reading the second book..
Then just today only
She told me that she helped me to borrow the first book from the school library..
Thank you so much
I thought i won't be able to read/watch the first story anymore..
But she actually helped me to borrow the book
Haha~
So happy..hee~
I missed the movie that time
So sad..
Lucky i managed to read the book
Haha~
Thank you again..=Pp..
Ermz..
You know what..
Before Chuling actually lend me the book
I've already borrowed 4 books from the library..
Haiz..
I don't think i'm going to read the 4 books after i got Harry Potter to read..
Hahaha~
I'm trying to complete the whole series..
Maybe..
I'll try to buy the whole series
I know it's abit late..
But..
Yarh..
Hahaha~
Harry Potter is nice..
=Pp Yeah!
Alright, i should go eat my dinner..=Pp
So hungry..
Was busying reading the book
And forgot totally about it..
Haha~

<= Fr0zen* Tears* => 8/21/2003 05:28:00 AM

So happy no mass run today
It was raining..
No..it didn't rain
It looked like it's going to rain..
So they didn't have mass run for us..
Hahaha..
Just as i hope alright?
Because my ankle and knee are very pain
'Cause of yesterday selection..
Ran too much
But still didn't get in
Whatever..
Used to it already..
This is the third time i'm going through selection..
Oh well..
I'm not good enough..
Stepping here and there whenever i got the ball..
Obviously i won't get in..
Lala!
Then today i felt so slacking..
Totally don't know what i'm doing..
Was reading Harry Potter the Chamber of Secret whole day..
Haha~
So nice..=Pp..
Hey..notice..
I have yet to read the first book..
Haha~
Oh well..
Then went home quite early..
'Cause you know..
Feeling very uncomfortable..
Yah..then went home..
Was slacking around..and rotting..
Even though i know i got alot of things i can do..
But..just free me one day
I'm really stressed up!

.::Injuries::.

Ermz..
How many parts of my body have i injuried?
Hahaha~
My ankle..my back..my knee
Woo hoo~
Let's see how many more part i can injure..
Oh well..
My ankle really very pain now..
Haiz..
I NEED AN ANKLE GUARD!
Let's see who can lend it to me..
I really need it okay?
Haha~
Any kind soul??
Please..haha

<= Fr0zen* Tears* => 8/21/2003 02:09:00 AM

Tuesday, August 19, 2003

Common test finally over!!!!!
How many days of torture
I'm finally free from it!!
Lalala~

Sometimes i think
Why do i always trying to torture myself with things that will definitely hurt me..
Maybe i should really just stop all contacts with you..
Even reading what you wrote..
Please someone kindly stop me from reading blog this person write..
I know..
No one else can do that
Except for myself..
But you know
I really wish to know things about that person..
Sub-conscious always bring me there..
Maybe i should really just cut off contacts from you-know-who..
It hurts and just hurts
Nothing can stop all the hurts
Because i simply just love you too much
Oh well..
I meant it..
Someone please really kindly give me some advice of what i should do now..
Some logical and reasonable advice!!!
PLEASE..I beg you, my friends..

I tell you something really serious now
You better pay attention to what i'm saying now
Or you'll regret..
++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++
I hate your attitude towards us alright?
You better change..
Because it's really very irritating..
You are not the only one on earth
We can't always because of you
And miss this and that..
I just wish that you can have a better attitude towards friends
Really..it's to your own good..
++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++
You whine when we asked you out for movie
Whining about this and that
When every decision was made long ago..
But
I don't see you whining when you went out with someone else
Same outing to a movie
Down town..
Hello..please..
That's really unfair to us..
When you asked you out
You said you were broke
And gave excuse here and there
But really
I don't see a single complain from you when you were going out with them
If you prefer them better..
Then go over
Don't stay here
Stop give us unreasonable things
Because we are too human that have feelings alright?!
++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++

My life is totally screwed up
Nothing seems to be getting in way of my life
Friends, relationship, family and everything in my life
What can i do to go back my normal self?
I feel really stressed being this way
Common test days were days that might be quite stressful
But i found it more peaceful part of my life
No classe, no lesson
No worry about what to do during free time
Because you are just studying and studying
Isn't leading common test life more carefree than school life?
They actually are..
Some might not agree
But just think
Common test times are times where you are closer to your friends when studying
Common test times are times that are "slacking" time without lesson being conduct
You can just do whatever kinds of thing that you will actually like to do..
They are the more peaceful life in school...
But still
Common tests are stressful and pressurize..

[Fr0zen*in*Tears]
[Because*I*love*You]

<= Fr0zen* Tears* => 8/19/2003 06:36:00 AM

Monday, August 18, 2003

.::Cuts::.

They appeared again
Right on the surface on my arm
21 + 21 lines
Just 21 + 21 red loving lines
But it felt like nothing
Nothing
Just red loving lines
Pressure
Stress
From everything
Water had rolled down
Rolled down to my cheeks
Every single on contains so much hurts
So much stress
So much pain
So much pressure
Crying didn't do anything much
Cuttings did better
More and more will appear
Days followed by days
Moments followed by moments
Seconds followed by seconds
More loving lines will slowly appear..

"have u ever loved someone
but watch her go away from u?
behaving as though ur a stranger
avoiding u like hell"
[Lifted from Liyun's blog]

Who don't?
Everyone had loved someone before
And one moment in life
They will leave you
And treat you like stranger
Starting to avoid
It hurts alot
Because you love that person deeply
But what is worst is
When you love this someone
And she treated just like dust and swept you off
Don't even treat you as human that exist on earth
It hurts just more than anything..

Just like what had been said
It had hurt me so much
After so much things that had happened
I realised how foolish i was
How wishing thinking i had
To trust that you can be the one
No no no..
You can never be the one
Let's just end here
No..
We had yet to start..
Treating me like dust
Swept me away just as you like
I'll definitely end everything NOW
And HERE..

I'm really proud of myself
I'm able to get over things
What had happened in the afternoon
I'm already getting over most of it now
Really..
Afternoon..
What i'd read almost made me cried
I stuned there for every long
Thinking of what had actually happened
Thinking of why all these things happened
Thinking of why i'm so foolish
I almost cried
Stoned in front of the computer for at least 5 minutes
Every memories with you swam pass my mind
Everythings that used to happened came back..
It hurts me so much
I'd thought of alot
I'm really a fool
I'm really childish
How wishing thinking i'm..
You will never belong to me
I hope
This time
I can really get over you
And move on with life without you
Because no matter what
There's no once that you will ever belong to me..

.::Today::.

Was sleeping away on my way to school
Slept in bus
In train
Bus to school
Slept at the bench
Almost sleep in class
But told myself i've to study
So was rather awake
So proud of myself
Managed to study my D&T within less than 1 hour
Hahaha~ lala~
But i got a few questions wrong
Don't care
It's D&T you know..
Haha~
Then got self-study
Was rotting and slacking away
Too tired to do anything
Got literature
Was crapping and crapping and crapping all the way
Then i stopped right at the spot
Wrote the full stop right at the time the teacher said stop
Lol..hahaha~
Then got recess
I think i got Samat quite angry
Oh well..
Lala~
Not my fault hah..
Sem is a better teacher
haha~~
Then got Maths
Slept right after i finished
Then woke up at around the last 5 minutes
Checked paper
Lucky i checked
I found one super careless mistake
Hahaha~
Lucky i found it alright?
Then later i found out i got 1 pathetic question wrong
=(
Screw myself
How can i??!!!
Then went Chuling's house
Rotting and slacking down there
Hahaha~
Supposed to study
But end up rotting
Then at last
Tried to concentrate and did my notes
Oh well..
Hopefully..
I could finish all my notes by tonight..
Ermz..hopefully!
Then reached home around 8++
So late
Haiz..
Nothing much to do..
So was online since just now
Eyes want to close already
Very tired
Lalala~
No!!
I can't sleep
Or i won't be able to study
I can't sleep
I can't sleep
I can't sleep
I can't sleep
Haiz..
So tired..

[Fr0zen*in*Tears]
[Because*I*l0ve*Y0u]

<= Fr0zen* Tears* => 8/18/2003 07:10:00 AM

Sunday, August 17, 2003

.::Glad::.

So glad that i'm able to get through..
Alright..
Friendships are really something which are really mircale
If you know that you never belong to friendship you suppose to
Then don't try to keep it..
Just let it go..
Or at least
Never try to get close to this kind of friendship
Because till the end
You are the one getting hurt
And no one else
So what for?
Just avoid friendships that never will belong to you
Don't wishing thinking that you can ever get it..
Because it just don't belong to you...

[Frozen*in*Tears]
[Because*I*love*You]

<= Fr0zen* Tears* => 8/17/2003 08:36:00 AM