Saturday, August 09, 2003
.::
Lala::.
Sometime life is really tough
I always wish to give it up..
I actually wanted it..
But during that time
I found people who concern
I found people who told me everything about life
But now..
I think i'm losing them
Maybe i'm..
Maybe i'm not..
They are really busy with their own things around..
Times i just wish that one of them can just put down her things and talk to me..
But alright
I can't be self-fish..
I can never do that just because i need someone to talk to..
.::
Note::.
Belverlyn
=>
Hey..i just found out..your name looked funny.haha..it's perhaps better to call you bel? hahaha..no no..should call you daddy! haha..and yes..this daddy right..very mean to
his daughter okay? haha..=Pp..hey! what am i going to do to your present? haha..i think..i should meet you..in ORCHARD..and make you carry the bear around..haha..
Haiz..i miss you so much..want to talk to you so much..because i like your voice..[alright..ha]..no larh..just joking..hee~ erm..meet up some other times to stone around? then i can tell you what you really want to know the other times..haha..right..
Okay..love you lots..and..yarh..take care..especially your hand..okay? don't do that anymore okay.it really hurts yarh?
<=
[Frozen*in*Tears]
[Belverlyn*I*miss*You][Hahahahahahahahaha!]
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8/09/2003 05:45:00 PM
Friday, August 08, 2003
.::
Wonder::.
Sometimes
I always wonder
Why do people know how to treasure each other only when you know you are losing them?
Before you know that you are losing them
You took them for granted
Never treat everything they do as something
You want every single one to follow you
Wanting everyone to give up something just because of you
You are too pampered dear..
That's
NO way that i'll give way alright
Time to learn that not everyone have to follow you
Not everyone have to listen to you
Not with me around
.::
Why::.
Heart really hurts
Hurts alot
Thinking of being heartless to you?
That was totally impossible..
Because i miss you
Because i love you
Because i need you
Because i want you..
That's no way that i can place you aside and carry on with my life
But now..
A few months later i have to see you leave
A few years later i have to see you leave
AGAIN
WHY??
It really hurts..
I hate to think about you leaving
Because that means that i might not have anymore chance to see you again
I wish to give you a hug
A tight hug right now..
I really don't want you to leave..
.::
Today::.
Went school..
Got our national day celebration..
Totally lame..
Except during the concert..
Only parts where we sang..
The rest..
Totally boring..
Hahaha..
Then went out
With Natania..Chuling..Theresa..
Went PS..[Cause i don't have any GV ticket..So i forced them to go..haha..]
Watched movie..
Lalala..
Watch Daddy Daycare..
SOOOOOOOO cute okay?
Hahaha..
So nice
Lalalala..
Oh yah..
Before the movie we went LJS for breakfast/lunch..
Then went around taking some lame lame photos..
Haha..oh well..lala..
Then after movie..
Went Chuling house with Natania..
Natania cheated my feeling okay..
Said she's coming back after her tuition..
Then in the end never..
CHEAT ME FEELING NATANIA!!
Screw you..haha..lala
As usual..slept in Chuling's house..
Hahaha..
Then woke up..
Went home by bus..
Bro came back..
Finally!!
Hahaha..
Then was watching show...
Watching..watching..watching..
Until just now..
Then came online..
Play play..chat chat..
Don't know what i'm doing now also..
Hahaha..oh whatever is with me..
HEY!
I haven't touch those presents for so long..
Too lazy to touch it again..
'Cause lately really tired with all e PBL..PFT..
Then no time to do..
Now want to do..
Then too lazy..
PIG!
Don't know whether can finish in time to give them or not
Hopefully..
Or i'll just wasted all my efforts
[Frozen*in*Tears]
[I*miss*you]*[I*love*you]
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8/08/2003 08:21:00 AM
Tuesday, August 05, 2003
.::
Screwed::.
I seriously don't know what happened to my life
Every single thing got so screwed up alright?
Starting of the school only i cried already..
Very very stressed up
Science test just now..
Screwed up..
Cry and cry and cry..
I don't know..
My life just suck up..
Then chinese got punish by Chia..
I got 3 Demerit Points by Chia today..
Chia gave 78 Demerit Points in one shot..
One shot alright?
Whole day i think she gave over 100++ Demerit Points..
Scary isn't she?
But can't blame her..
Cause is partly our fault..
But she went abit too far too..
=|
She's sick..and bad mood..
Maybe that's why..
Well..hope she doesn't do that everyday..
Or..
The whole school will suffer..
Then today Literature..
Fell asleep..
Was really tired..
Eyes so so pain..
Slept..
Oh well..sorry!
Then had CS..
Did PBL..all the way..
So went late for assembly..
That's why got DP from Chia..
Unlucky day okay?
Then after school..
Went for PFT..
I'm like not suppose to do PFT??!!
But still i went..
Hee~~
Shuttle-run got 11.7 seconds..[Fast?? I tried it once only..cause knee pain..=|][B/C]
Sit-up got 32 times..[Cheated a little..ha][A]
Inclined got 7 times..[Only alright??][C]
Standing board jump got 160cm..[Just nice on the line..hahaha][C]
Sit and Reach got 41cm..[HEY!!! 1 more cm to B okay??][C]
Hee~~..
Got all C and above..
Getting GOLD!!!!
So happy!!
yeah Yeah YEAH!
Alright..enough..
Hey..i forgot..
My 2.4km..i got 15.25min..[Very bad i know..=|][B/C]
But all these i have to pay a price okay?
My knee pain..=|
Because of the run..and jump..
My knee is very pain now..
ARGH..
Have to rest my leg already..
Or else i'll break it..lol!
Then after PFT..
Went to do PBL again..
Rush through..
Did all the journal..
Finally finish..
Then went home..
Found out that my diskette can't use..
Gosh..
No..not my disk can't use..
Is my drive something wrong..
So have to ask Dawnie to help me..
Hee..sorry..
Need to trouble you so much..
Then afterwards need to memorize the whole ppt presentation..
And finish my journal..
But have to wait for Dawnie to slowly..Slowly..SLOWLY..sent over the file first..
Hahaha..
I just remember..
I have yet to finish those presents..
Hahaha..
So slow okay?
So lazy to do..
But, still must do..
=|
Alright..
I got no more thing to say..
Hey..wait!
I haven't taken my dinner yet..
=|
But no dinner for me to eat also..
Intended to eat noodle..
But then dad at home..
If i eat noodle..then he will start nagging..nagging..and nagging..
You know..old people are like that..
Haiz..can't blame sia..=X
.::
Shed*a*Tear::.
I have shed tears
For y*o*u
For my life
For alot of things..
I used to shed for y*o*u
But other than tears..
There's still blood..
For my life..
I'm too stress..
That i cry and cry and cry every single day..
For y*o*u..
I hate life now..
I don't use to..
Because i used to love y*o*u very much..
And seeing y*o*u is like my everything in life..
Seeing you smile..
Seeing you laugh..
Brighten up my life..
But now..
Nothing in the world now can make me happy..
No one can..
[Frozen*in*Tear]
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8/05/2003 05:00:00 AM
Monday, August 04, 2003
.::
Stress::.
Broke down
My mind just went crazy
I'm really stressed up
How bad is my life now?
Am i at my lowest?
Everything seem not to get in the right way..
My studies..
My sports..
Just every single thing in my life..
Getting wrong way..
How much i wish now there's someone by my side..
Holding me tight in her/his arm..
Telling me everything is alright with him/her around
And could lend me a shoulder to cry on..
Someone who can listen to me..
Understand me
Just someone who can understand me well..
Wipe away all my tears..
Protect me away from all hurts..
And accompany me to fight away all my fears..
But this someone has yet to appear in my life..
Maybe she had appeared..
But she's too busy with her things..
Still..
Sometime i wish so much that she could be by my side listening to me..
My very darling of my life..
I love you lots..
Really lots..
.::
Today::.
Chia didn't come
Neo was on PBL..
So we got 4 free periods..
Still..
Life is so stress up..
:'(
Other than that..
We decided to go movie on friday..
Going to watch Daddy Daycare..
Cool that movie..
And well..
Chan really suck!
Confiscated my ear-ring alright?
I mean is like
What's her problem?
[Even Ms Chia didn't say anything about my ear-ring..]
Trying to act like our form teacher?
Like what Mrs Neo is trying to do?
Hello..
Both of you stop it alright?
WE ONLY HAVE ONE FORM TEACHER
AND THAT IS MS CHIA CHEN CHI!
Stop trying to control our class..
And scold us like you are our form teacher?
Is not like you got nothing to do alright?
Chan..
You have your own form class..why still so busybody about our class..
And Neo..
It's not like you are very free..
Mind your own business alright?
Stop trying to be like our form teacher..
That's very irritating!!!
Okay..i should stop that..
I'm getting too violent..
Hehehe..
Then..
After school..
Went computer lab..
Do nothing..
Just some PBL stuffs..
Then saw Mrs Han..
Hahaha..
I was like screaming in her ears..
Hehehe..
I love her too much..
Then go for abit "school-tour" around the school..
To find Mrs Khan..
Then i got cheated by Mrs Goh..
Asked me go switch off the light..
Made me run to the end of the building..
But then later the switches is like beside her only??
Cheat my feelings!!
Hahaha..
Then went for netball training..
Didn't really went..
Just sat there and watched them training..
Actually it passed quite fast..
2 hours just gone like this..
Then heard Michelle talking..
Went to change..
Then went home..
Was very stressed up then..
Cause i found out that i forgot to bring my science textbook home..
Tomorrow science test okay??!!!
What's with me these few days??
So so so distracted..
Then my english also..
I failed everything okay?
All my letter writting..
Bully essay..
FUCK!
Then almost cried on my way home..
Broke down badly..
Was finding someone to talk to..
But like no single soul is free to chat..
All busy with their own things..
I don't know how too
I really need someone by my side now..
Broke down..collapsed..
What more can my body suffer?
Whatever.
I should just cut..
Cut myself..
Kill myself..
Jump down from the tallest building..
Or even just from my house..
10th floor..
I think will die..
Then good..
Everything end then..
No one will mourn for me..
No one will even bothers about me existance..
Jingru = Nothing..
Right!
[Frozen*in*Tears]
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8/04/2003 06:33:00 AM
Sunday, August 03, 2003
You are ice. You have a cold exterior but a warm
heart.
What element is your soul? brought to you by Quizilla
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8/03/2003 06:38:00 AM
You represent... apathy.
You don't really show any emotion. You can be
considered cruel and cold, but you just don't
really care about anything. This is just the
way you are... you're quite a challenge to get
close to, and others may perceive you as
boring.
What feeling do you represent? brought to you by Quizilla
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8/03/2003 06:29:00 AM
.::
Wrong::.
I'm deeply wrong
I finally found out
Someone could control my life
Other than myself
Someone is there controlling my life
This time is not whether i allow or not
This person just control my life
Oh well
But this time you have made me real heartless
Now
Who cares whether you give a bloody fuck about me
Because now it's my turn to tell you
I no more give a bloody fuck about you
How much more heartless you can get
You can NEVER compare to mine
Because you have force me to my heartlessness
No..
Not force..
You pushed me there
And the starting of my heartlessness compare to yours
Yours is NOTHING
Oh well..
Y*O*U are just nothing
And i'll never give a bloody fuck about Y*O*U
I'm that heartless
And now
No matter how much problems you have
How much heartbroken you are
I'll never ask about you
To the extreme of you killing yourself
I'll never be there
To encourage you or anything
I'll never be there
'Cause you have yet to treasure what i've given you
.::
Today::.
Just like a pig
Slept whole day
Haha~
Morning..
Woke up..
Went market with my mum
Woo~Hoo~
Then came back home..
Watched tv..
While my mum was cooking..
Hahaha..well..
Then ate laksa..
Not that bad..=Pp
Then i slept the whole afternoon
When i'm like suppose to bake something this afternoon??!!
Oh well..who cares..
Sleeping and eating is the best thing to do on earth..
YEAH!
Then woke up..
Ate dinner..
Hey..all spicy okay?
Then now my stomach like..some volcano like that..
Like going to explore anytime
Woo~Hoo~
I think i've to neutralise my stomach later..
Hah
Later..
Don't know what i'm going to do..
Maybe the presents??
Yah..
Need to finish those presents fast..
Opps..!
No one is suppose to know about those presents..
Hee~
Whatever..
You guys also won't know those are for who..
=Pp..
Ermz..
Maybe i'll stay online..
For a little bit more while..
'Cause i really lazy to do the presents..
Hee~
Well..see first..
See my mood..
[Frozen*in*Tears]
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8/03/2003 05:03:00 AM
