Thursday, July 17, 2003
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GoodBye::.
It hurts
It really does hurt
I never expect to get hurt so badly
But oh
I need to face it anyway
I almost broke down today
I got hurt again and again
My heart was broken again and again
My body
Scars everywhere
But people just hurt me again and again
My body really can't take it anymore
Please don't get any closer to me
Any touch hurts
Because the whole of me is injuried
Very badly
People
Just go away
Don't touch me again
Don't get anymore closer to me
Just go away
Stop hurting me
I'm sorry
Please forgive me
I chose to forget
As to prevent myself from getting anymore hurts
As to allow myself to recover from all the hurtings
Sorry
I've chose this path
Just not to allow anymore people to touch me
I chose to forget
Please forgive
GoodBye to you
GoodBye to SK
GoodBye to all the church-mates
GoodBye to the captain ball team
GoodBye to SKMC
GoodBye to everyone in there
Just allow me to get off
I'll no more appear in front of you people
No more
I'll no more go for captain ball
Though
People
The last thing i want to say
You people are really nice
It's no one fault
I just chose to let go
I just chose to give up
I just chose to forget
GoodBye to everyone
You'll never see me again
I'm sorry
I'm really sorry
Except for my "brother"
I'll not contact any of the SKMC's mates anymore
Not even my "auntie"
Not even him
I just want to let go
And i've chose this way..
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Her::.
Her primary school life was pure
Real pure
Till her primary 4
She started to like this guy
That was the first time she got hurt
Badly as i can say
Her result was good
Top in class
She liked this guy for 2 years
Till the end of her primary 6
They were together
For less the 2 month
She came into her secondary school life
Thinking that secondary school life will be much better
But no
It was worst
Her first year in school was the worst
Ever worst
No one seem to like her
But still
She managed to get through
In the 1 year
She liked 1 girl
And loved 1 girl
The girl that she loved
Hurt her very deep
Very deep
She loved her for 1 full year
She gave in everything
In her second year
Things got much better
She started to like these 2 girl
Got hurt once again
Her heart got broken again and again
Her result was terrible
Really terrible
She failed her english
Badly
Real badly
During june
She liked this guy so much
So much
But what had happened
She once again got hurt
Not only from him
But her close friends around her
All of them leave her alone
All by herself
They kept of hurting her
When nothing from the past had yet to recover
She then decided to end all this
On 12 of july
She ended her story
She ended all her sufferings
But she felt happy
Deep from her heart
She was delighted
To get off the grip of devil
She got off
During the 1 1/2 years of secondary school life
She hurt herself many times
She cut herself
She destroy her
Because she never know how to treasure herself
As all she gets were all hurts
Hurts and more hurts
How do you expect her to treasure herself
Never
Never will she treasure herself
She's happy
Leaving this world is her very wish
She finally left
Really don't worry
She felt happy leaving this world
She's happy
Dying is a happier thing for her
People
Please do forgive her
Please do forgive her
She had done NOTHING wrong
People forced her into this
She had no choice
But to take this path
Though
She's still happy
Just let her be
Just let her go
She'll be happy
She'll be delighted
Thank you people for forgiving her
She really needs it..
Ended
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7/17/2003 08:39:00 AM
Wednesday, July 16, 2003
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Why::.
Why to left me alone
Why to do such cruel things to me
You people
Just left me alone there
Told me to go alone
Oh
What friends
Do you people understand
I waited for so long
So long
Just for you guys to come down
But what had you guys done
You asked me to come down
And what time you actually reached there?
Oh well
You think it's fun doing this
I rushed down
Just thinking that i might be late
But
Oh..what happened?
You guys can wait for her
But did you people actually think of how i feel
You guys left me ALL alone by myself
Do you actually understand how extra i'm that day
Don't i even have a single right to show unhappiness
Don't i even have a single right?
Everyone seemed to be more important than me
Oh well
Off you people go
Don't try to get anymore closer to me
It really hurts me that day
Why have you to do that to me
When my pathetic body was already hurt
Off you go
Just go away
Don't ever touch me again
Don't ever get anymore close
.::
Her::.
Her story ended
On 12 July
She ended her story
It's not a silly act
It's not a silly act!
Can you people forgive her?
Please forgive her..
She needs it
Even though she no more exist here
But
She does need it
Her life started on 110689
Her life ended on 120703
She lived for 14 years
14 LONG years
She suffered alot
She enjoyed the least
But people still blame her
Why
Just allow her to leave this world happily
To leave this world without people blaming her
Leaving the world of depressed
Leaving the world of sadness
Leaving the world of tears
Leaving the world of hurts
Don't you think this is a happier ending for her
Don't you think she will be happier leaving this world
She'll be
Don't worry
She'll be happy leaving this world..
To be continue...
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7/16/2003 01:07:00 AM
