Thursday, June 19, 2003
.::
Pains::.
Physically pain
Mentally pain
Emotionally pain
Can anyone ever understand?
[
Physical]
My back
Pain
Ever since starting of this year
But does anybody know
Does anybody understand
Wednesday
Came back from training
My back hurts like crazy
Till today
I can't make it for my training
If you people got to scold again
Go ahead
Because i can't help it
My back seriously hurt
I'm sorry people
This is not something i want too
[
Mental]
Things had yet to recover
Because they were too deep
Sometimes
It hurts to think about the past
I don't get to understand myself much
I got sudden mood swing
Very bad mood swing
I'm really sorry people
Cherlynn..
I really didn't meant to show attitude during the training
But i can't control it
I wish to stop it
But this come in very suddenly
Give me sometime people
I'll recover from it
[
Emotion]
Things hurted too deep
That my fear of getting another grow stronger
I'm afraid of giving my feelings
I'm scared of love
I no more dare to move
To move any forward
Not even backward
To stay onto my past
All i can do is
To stand still
And wait for [her] to come and save me
I can't move
Because too deep
They were far too deep
Will all things heal?
Will time heals everything?
People always say
Time heals everything
But how long it's going to take?
1 week?
1 month?
1 year?
or 1 lifetime?
How long have it passed?
And nothing in me seem healing
I'm still afraid
I'm still scared
Of her
These [cuts] are too deep
That they are never going to heal
<= Fr0zen* Tears* =>
6/19/2003 12:47:00 AM
Wednesday, June 18, 2003
Is the glass half full or half empty?
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6/18/2003 09:43:00 PM
Monday, June 16, 2003
.::
Heart-broke::.
I know it's you
I don't understand why
I've always been wondering
But i got no answer from you
I know you'll be reading this
And everything are from you
But why
I just want to know
When I need you so much
When I wanted you so much
You don't show anything
Now
When I want to forget you
When I got over you
You
Make me remind of you again
The one who pull me back when I said I want to quit
The one who give me all hopes in B division
The one who later stopped everything
Because of a simple her
The one who next said me to drop it
What do you want me to do
What are you trying to prove
I admited that I'm at wrong
But don't tell me you are not
Haven't I given you enough respect?
Haven't I given you enough?
Have I ever been rude to you?
Think again
I've never
Other seniors I might have
But to you
I never even dare to
Because I'm afraid of what will happen
Tell me now
How much do you still want to hurt me
If you want you say you had never
Oh well
Stop getting in my life then
I don't need anything from you
Not even a single word
Not even a single lecture
Because you had hurted me too much
Hurted me too deep
Till
I've learnt to be heartless to you
<= Fr0zen* Tears* =>
6/16/2003 06:25:00 PM
