Saturday, May 17, 2003
[Why]
why
why to tell me all these
i don't need to know
don't need to tell me
i didn't ask for it
stop telling me what
she did to you
stop telling me how is
she to you
have i ask for it
i didn't
so
stop telling me all these
how
she's to you is
YOUR business
not mine
want to make me jealous
oh thank
i don't like
her anymore
don't purposely ask the obvious
when things are so
obvious
don't forever remind me of
her
don't forever indirectly telling me that you are still close
her
please
i
don't need all these okay
i
hate all these for goodness sake
i
hate people to remind me of unhappy things
especially from you
don't reply using
her style
you don't suit to
you still don't have enough right to
be yourself for god sake
don't copy
her style
you are just making a fool out of yourself
stop trying to act as if you don't care
your facial exxpression already show
everything
you like means you like
you are happy means you are happy
acting like a fool in front of us
like but act as if you don't
happy but act as if you don't
please
we are your friends
don't think that we don't know what you are thinking girl
so stop acting
please
it's freaking
irritating
i made this
very clear from these entry
very clear
stop doing all these freaking
irritating things
or else
don't blame me of doing unpleasant things in front of public to you
don't blame me if i ask you to fuck off
i'll
i said that
i meant it
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5/17/2003 12:29:00 AM
Friday, May 16, 2003
[Today]
i don't know what to say about today
just know that i'm happy..
ya
happy
don't know is because i saw
her
or because my friends made me happy
but i do enjoy today
art exam
strain my hand too much yesterday
can't do drawings anymore later in times
6 hours of drawings
non-stop
that's what happen
pain
remind me of my
back
my
ankle
my
head
whole body pain
back
can't do long distance
see doctor later in times
ankle
forever pain
even with
her ankle guard
now without
her ankle guard
i bet it will sprain till it break
head
stress
stress
stress
made me headache
but
no one seem to care
fine
i just go and die myself
and
no one will care
after art
went town
ceni
watch movie
"
the gathering"
nothing much interesting
just some shocking scene
with zelanie's screams
met lots of crescentians
people i know
people i don't know
people who hate me
people like my friends
people i like
people i hate
i was with jialing, jeanette and zelanie
took neoprint before the movie
but wasn't in really good mood then
because of some unhappy things that people didn't realise
after movie
about to go home
walked from ceni to orchard mrt
half way
saw
liyun and
jinger
well
so we ran
but still met them
jialing was like
"
jeanette! look! the sun!"
everyone broke up into laughter
even
them
then sent jeanette to mrt station
went to taka
saw crescentians
tsk me tsk jialing
who cares anyway
then went wisma
then went back taka basement
came out
about to go home
jialing suggested to go heeren "flash and splash"
on the way there
zelanie was asking
"
how to know who's bung and who is guy"
hahaha
so we were pointing here and there
to let her see what is bung
but
only saw 3 bungs
in heeren
went in flash and splash
trying on clothes
and cap
happy moment
went out of heeren
went straight back to mrt
jialing's card not enough money
-___-||
but i went in already
so wait and wait
for her to chase zelanie
went down
took train
went home
exhausted
tired
message
her
but
she told me
she's
not going home
but to
training
netball training
so late
still got training
see
her so tired
so exhausted
my
heart aching
worry about
her back
hopefully do take
good care of
herself
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5/16/2003 05:25:00 AM
Tuesday, May 13, 2003
the day i have been waiting
the hope i have having
finally came
she
finally willing to talk to me
finally forgive
finally get back what it used to be
this time
i promise
i won't do things
impulsively again
i don't want to lose her again
i'll learn to treasure her
thank for your forgive
thank for your everything
thank
even if it is short
i'll treasure
i definately will
[tears]
memories
memories
i do love them
but i don't wish to have them
unless they don't hurt me again
but
there's
no way that i can choose
to choose which i want
and which i don't want
i love my past..
i don't know my future
but
i'll learn to treasure the present
all the memories came back to me today
almost cried
not only
her memories
but
everything
all my past
everything
place i used to live
times when i can spend more time with my
mother
but i
didn't learn to treasure the moment last time
didn't
even
her
i have to learn to treasure now
because
she finally came back into my life
finally
always wonder why
people tend to
brush me off
so easily
they
never thought of my feelings
never
they just brush me off
just as a
simple nobody to them
but
how much hurt i got from it
so much
so much
[friendship]
i thought that friendship
will last forever
forever
but nevertheless
it is just another
simple friendship
simple
but
how much i hope
how much i wish
this wasn't real
tell me again
ensure me again
assure me
that it
wasn't real
you still treasure this friendship
this is not a
simple friendship
tell me again
you will be there when i need you
you will be won't you
when i got to actually know you
i
rely alot on you
alot
till that
now i have to get up myself
all alone
to be independent by myself
because this friendship is
fading
i no more feel the promise
i no more feel your warmth
sometime i might even think
are you just as image
or are you real
because
again and again
i can't feel you anymore being there for me
maybe i'm really thinking too much
but i do feel
neglected
i feel that
someone is getting in our friendship
yes
someone is getting in
fading our friendship
i do try very hard to maintain
but i can't
because i can't deal with all this now with my exam
i count it on you
if it could last till the end of everything
i can say
our friendship is
firm
is
stable
but if
it couldn't last till then
i can only say
thank
thank for all that you have given me
even though it's short
but it's nice
i truely hope
our friendship
will
never break so easily
i hope
i could
last through
i hope
no one can get into this friendship
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5/13/2003 02:02:00 AM
Sunday, May 11, 2003
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5/11/2003 07:20:00 AM
