Saturday, May 10, 2003
what will my becoming be
because of
her
what will i become
after
she left crescent
will i ever
have the chance to tell
her
how much i love her
how much she meant to me
how much her existance in my heart
how deep was my love
will i ever have this chance
will i ever
can i ever
hold her tight in my arms
feel her warmth
say that i love her
say that she meant everything to me
tell her that
i can't leave without her
i hate when answer it "no"
i hate it
but i've to face it
will you
ever hold me tight
ever hold in yours arms
close me up to you
to your heart
will you
ever give me promises again
ever tell me you love me
ever belong to me
ever allow me to hold you
"no"
still the
hateful and fateful answer
will
my wounds ever heal
my tears ever stop
my cuts ever stop appearing
my memories ever stop fading
my hurts ever got deeper
you ever belong to me
i ever close to your heart
"no"
still that
fateful answer
heart hurts
and never stop hurting
tears drop
and never stop dropping
scars stay
and never disappear
memories fades
and never stop fading
i love
and never stop loving
for you
just for you
i'll never regret
never to stop my love
because
you meant far too much
life without you
is life without me
i can't leave
without you
my wounds never heal without you
my memories fade without you
my tears never stop dropping without you
i love you..liyun..
<= Fr0zen* Tears* =>
5/10/2003 09:42:00 AM
Thursday, May 08, 2003
[cried]
i
don't know what i'm now
i
don't know what i should do now
i
don't know what i would become
i
don't know
i
don't know
i just know that i love her..more than anything..
i cried
no i didn't
because i chose to
act strong
but my heart was crying
bleeding
all the words
she sms me yesterday
totally
knife stabbed in my heart
broken into pieces
when can they mended back
the day
she willing to talk to me
she willing to get back the closeness
that day
never arrive
never
even till the end of everything..my love will never end..
"that's no reason for me to be angry"
one of
her sms
should i be happy or sad
she
wasn't angry with me
she wasn't
but
does
she meant that
because i meant
nothing to
her
nothing
that's why
she didn't even bother to be
heart-broken
heart-arching
totally
death this time
i asked
her
"why do things turn out this bad"
she said
"don't know"
and tried to brush me off
do you know how hurt it was when these two phrases came out from
her
tears almost fought out
but
i forced it back
i don't wish to feel lonely
i don't wish to
but
from the day
she stopped the training
i felt lonely
because
she left my life
totally left
but not my heart
i love her
i love her
the only
her
i would
never to give up
because i can never
every single memories come back
whenever i see her
whenever i see people training in the morning
whenever i see people running parade square
whenever i see netball
whenever i'm alone
you can leave my life..but not my soul and heart..
she once said
to give me training
to give me tuition on my english
but i
never once treasure it
till the day
she stopped everything
i found out
that was the ever most treasure in my life
i
rejected her tuition
why
i kept asking myself
i shouldn't
i shoudn't had
how much i wish
she's able to said these two sentence again..
<= Fr0zen* Tears* =>
5/08/2003 02:19:00 PM
[heart arching]
really sour
really pain
i always wonder why
always
she chose her instead of me..
i don't know
how am i going to get over
her
i never know how
i saw all the things people wrote about how nice
she was to her
i'm so
jealous
so
jealous
i ever wish that
she was mine
wish so much
i don't wish to think
i don't wish to have memories
at least not now
those
close times we had
those
happy times we had
always made me
cried
when i thought of what actually happened between us now
i wish to cry
but i need a shoulder
but i can't find one
yuani..bel..
i need both of you
i want to cry
but i don't wish to be
alone
alone by myself
i love Liyun..i missed her..i truely love her..
tears all fighting out
but i choose to remain
strong
at least i won't feel the
loneliness
but
i can't promise
i won't cry
when i think of
her again
but at least
by then
people are all with me
i choose the road
to a place that
hurt
hurt and hurt
can her love ever be stronger than mine
Liyun..don't get angry..please don't..i need you more than anything..
cut
i wish i will
cut
i will
someday
my heart hurts
so much
felt like it actually
broken into pieces
that it would
never be mended back again
my love for you
ever the
strongest
please don't leave my world
please don't
i need you
more than anything
anything
i'm willing to give up my life
for you
for your
forgiveness
till the last breathe of me
i'll still seek your
forgiven
your forgiven meant everything to me..even my life..
you had an
important place in my heart
really
important
every single step or action from you
make my
heart-arch
pain..and heart-broken
just simply because
my love for you
is
eternal
is deep
deeper than any oceans
any holes
anything
i wait
wait for the day of your
forgiven
the day that you willing to talk to me again
i'll wait
even till the day of my death
every part of me
belong to you
<= Fr0zen* Tears* =>
5/08/2003 05:04:00 AM
Wednesday, May 07, 2003
[heart-broken]
why
again why
why again
why do bad things always happen between us
why..
times when i always wanted to get back
to apologize
to get your forgiveness
things always get to happen right in time
preventing me from telling all things to you
anything that i can do
to have your forgiveness
i will
anything
even things that is not within my limit
if sorries can ever obtain your forgiveness
i will never waste a moment to say sorry to you
not one
not ten
but hundreds
but thousands
just to simply obtain one simple forgiveness from you
for what had happened
i've never wish it had happened
never wish
natural reaction for me
i can't control
that's why
i
regretted doing that
right after the moment i've done it
i tried
all ways all means
to say sorry
to have your forgiven
but
none of them success
you are angry
i'm really sorry
sorry
sorry and
sorry
i really didn't mean it
mood swing
my character
is really something i never wish to have
some of my bad point
i'm too sensitive
too emotional
too mood swing
please forgive me
please my dear
i really didn't mean it
your forgiven
is so hard
so difficult
to have
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a thousand sorry i will say to you
i promise i will
i said it
i will
<= Fr0zen* Tears* =>
5/07/2003 12:39:00 AM
Tuesday, May 06, 2003
[Wonder]
always wonder why
people don't bother to clear things up with people who they suppose do
instead
they actually clear things up with people where they are
NOT SUPPOSE to..
i really wonder all these things
all these wonders i had
no one will ever give me an answer
no one will ever
because the only person who can answer that question was gone
gone
far away
i don't know what will happen again
because i don't have a good feeling of what is going to happen next
so
bad feeling i had now
i know
something will going to happen
i know
can i ever hold you tight in my arm
during the night
such that i can feel the warmth from you
can i ever win your heart over
such that you belong to me
can my love ever to reach you
after all misunderstandings we have
can we ever hold each other tight
so that we stick close together
that i'm not afraid that you will be gone
that you are to able to hear all my single love for you
can i ever touch your heart
such that you know how i feel
such that i get closer to your heart
such that i will never to lose you
can i ever do all these
after the misunderstandings we had
i wish to hold you by my side
because all the coldness in my heart
shiver in tears and fears
and only your warmth could stop all the shivers
all the tears
all the fears
i love you
from the beginning till now
i had never let go
never let go before
my love will never fade
till the day of my death
will you ever hold me tight
to give me warmth
to stop all shivers
to stop all tears
to stop all fears
my dear darling
you are the only one
that had never to leave my heart
every moment
every seconds
my thinkings consist of you
you are the only one
that can stop all everything
please my dear
i need your love
i need your warmth
hold me tight
i'm afraid to lose my sight off you
you are the one i'm thinking of when my day start
you are the one i'm thinking of when my day ends
you are the one who i dreamt of in my dreams
from the starting of my day
till the ending of my day
even in my dreams
you are in my life
every single moment
every single second
i love you lots my dear
please grant me the chance
to get closer to your heart
to feel your warmth
to feel your love
but i know
this chance never exist in my life
never from you
my dear my love my darling
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5/06/2003 07:00:00 AM
