Thursday, May 01, 2003
ironic..
ha~
ever wonder when my blog become
so ironic..
the funniest joke i've ever seen...
i treat people just as how they treat me..
have you ever seeing me treating bel or any of my friends who care unreasonablely?
no and
never
i wonder
how people get nice when they start
tsskking people
so
nice can she gets
i do..
have my own limit to my patience
you ignored
you start to tsskk
when people didn't even offend you
you are the one
forcing me to push you to your own limit
so my fault you are telling me?
you pathetically did these to yourself
& why
to understand the phrase "let me go" so deep
it's not meaning that we are in love
i jolly well know we aren't
it just simple meaning to let me go
of my past
stop doing things to prove your existence
such that it will remind me of my past
of my past of loving you
let me go such that i wun hang on to my own past
let me go such that i would forget you
you wanted to do things to make me hate you
but instead
you are doing all these to prove your existence
to make me remind of you
that's why i said
let me go
and how creative are you
to think of things that i never even get to think of
to understand things that i don't mean
ha~ so funny
don't treat as if you are that great
hello girl
you are not
STOP thinking that
everything i wrote meant you
they are not!
from the beginning
you are the one misunderstanding everything
"let me go"
ha~ this
pathetic one phrase make you think so much
hahahahahaha~
please get things right okay?
and please
from the day that you ignored me
my love for you already stopped
STOPPED
now
don't think so much okay
and please
i'm not god
i don't know everything that you don't like
and stop tsskking beside me..
and jolly well stop doin' things that i hate beside me
unless you want me to do things that you hate to you too
[ha~ so funny your entry..]
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5/01/2003 08:39:00 AM
Tuesday, April 29, 2003
[Hurt]
[Friendship]
So hurt
Everything that had happen were so hurt
I don't know how long can I
survive if this world if things continue
I don't know what people are thinking anymore
I feel stressed
I feel drained
I feel exhausted
People can
leave a friend who needs them so much just because someone talked bad about her
People can
ignore a friend just because her friends don't like her
People got so
superficial
People got so
materialistic
People got so
cruel
People got so forgetful
Can't you remember the days of all the basketball trainings we have
Can't you remember the days that we laughed through the trainings
Can't you remember the days that we hugged
Can't you remember the days that your comfort is so needed
Can't you remember all these
I'm a friend
Who need you
So much
But yet
You left
Because of reasons that I'll
never to accept
For reasons that I
never wish to accept
I had never
Never to believe that this kind of hatred will come from you
Because we were once friends who laugh together
[Relationship]
Why to hurt a love that loves?
I
never understand why
Hurting a love
Is that fun
Why to hurt me
again & again
Just let me go can't you
I have said before
I will not bother about you anymore
I
mean what I have said
I really do mean
Stop doing things that shows that
you hate me
Stop doing things that shows that
I once love you
Stop doing things that
remind me of your existance
I don't need all this
Just fuck off
& stop tsskking people who never offended you
Stop tsskking people who wish to
forget you
Stop tsskking people just because you want them to
hate you
Let me tell you something
You will never be able to do so
Because all e tsskks just make people remind of your
existance when they wish to
forget
So just fuck off can't you
And
stop reminding people of your existance
Because we
DON'T need that
[Long lost her]
The tears that never stopped dropping
The love that never changed
The wounds that still fresh
The feelings that got deeper each time
The memories that made tears drop
The one that I have been loving
The her that long lost
The her that I never regret
The her that I missed so much
Is she the love in my life?
I don't know
But I don't wish to know too
I don't want to get hurt
Again
& again to get in a hurting world
Without getting out the current one
The song that came out from the piano
Touched my heart so much
I realise
I have
fell in love with this her again
However
I know
I'm just getting in a world that
pathetical hurt
A world that never belong to me
I jolly well know this world hurts
But yet
I still willing to get in
Or should I say
I'm not able to get out
With the only strength I have left
So fight for survive in this world
The forgiveness I have been seeking
The reply I have been waiting
None of them came to me
She
I know
Will never willing to enter the world of mine
Because she got better world else where to enter
But I just want her to know
She's
never forgotten by my heart
She had
never left my heart
One part of my heart
Is still with her
I
missed her so much
Yet there's no way that I can tell her
Give me a reply will you
Just a single word will still do
Just to let me know that
In some part of your memories
I'm still exist there
I'm too stubborn in all these
That's why I got hurt everytime
I'm just too stubborn
[Thanks]
"To bel alone
She's the only one who deserve all these thanks"
Thank you so much
For being there
When I need people by my sides badly
Thank you so much
For being there
When I need advices from people
Thank again
For pulling me back
Preventing me from falling into so hurting world
But sorry
I had just fell in
Thanks for being there
When I totally lost
To what of my memories
You are
always there when I need someone
A true friend indeed
A friend that I have been seeking
I used to ask myself
"Is there one day that I could find someone who can understand me thoroughly through"
"Is there a person in this world that I can rely on & alway there when I need someone"
I used to think that the answer is "no"
Because no one can be so perfect
But now I have found one
Though you are not perfect
Because no one is perfect
But to me
You are a
perfect friend in my heart
A friend that never miss to ask for me
A friend that never miss being there for me
Knowing you
I can say
I have really got
Nothing more to ask from this perfect friend I have
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4/29/2003 09:14:00 AM
