Friday, April 11, 2003
[death]
"when tt'z no one in tiz planet who carez..u noe..i'm gone.."
last part of e quote she gave me..
she said tt..
she's gone..
god plz help..
dun let her 2 silly thing...
-tears dropping-
e angel who's alwayz wif me..
how can she juz gone..
NO WAY!!!!
god..i pray..& pray..& pray..
i'll pray as much..
if u willing 2 let her stay..
she's urs child..
y can't u juz..save her?
she's there..4 everyone..
everyone luv her..
wad haf she done tt she deserve all tiz..
SHE DOESN'T!!!!
she's a nice person..
plz god..
dun let her leave tiz world..
plz dun bring her away..
plz..& nv...
[tears will nv stop dropping..till e dae..she's able 2 stay..]
[my prayer will nv stop..unless god brings her back..]
[i'll nv 4gif god..if god were 2 bring her away..]
[god nv haf e rite 2 take her away..]
[i'll hate god 4ever..if she's gone..]
-i'll nv 4gif god..4 taking her away..-
-tears dropping-
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4/11/2003 09:23:00 PM
Wednesday, April 09, 2003
"take care"
wad is e
real meaning behind tt pharse?
we used too so much..
heard is so mani times..
it's so commonly used..
tt..we 4got e real meaning behind it..
[take care] = when e weather is cold..wear more clothes..when e weather is hot...drink more water..when u r tired..remember 2 rest..
so commomly used..
we 4got e real meaning..
haf anione..[except 4 her..]
ever tink of tiz..
yesterdayz..
she actuallie reallie woke me up frm all my dreams..
i suddenly..juz understand..
wad life reallie r..
when u actuallie said sumthing..
meant it..
is nt lyk..
i'll say..'hey pplz...take care wor..'
then e other thought..
i'll b tinking..
'aiyah..u pplz go out will get knock down by car..'
meant everything tt u say..
when u reallie luv..go ahead..
but 1st..ask urself..whether u reallie luv..
when u do anithing..
1st ask urself..
do u reallie mean it..
when u say u r there..
do u reallie meant it?
or r u juz there..
2 say sumthing very fake..?
when u actuallie said u r there..
meaning tt no matter wad time..
even 3 am..4 am..
u'll b there..
even when u r slping..
when i called..
u r there..4 me..
no one haf ever make e real promise of tt 4 me..
except..4 her..
wad does "
frenz" means?
sumone who alwayz hang out wif u?
no...dey r juz sumone..
sumone who onli shared all e joy wif..
no..dey r fake frenz..
frenz r pplz who u can tok 2..
sumone u can shared..even sorrow wif...
dey r nt pplz who brushed u away when u need em badly..
dey r pplz..even though..
u hang on 2 e phone..
& speak nth..
dey r still there..
dey r pplz..who will stay by e phone..2 listen 2 wad ever u'll b saying..
dey r pplz..who willing 2 shared everything wif u..
dey r pplz...who willing 2 b there..even if u r angry..
dey r pplz..even though u vent anger on em..
dey dun mind..bcuz dey noe u dun mean it..
if even once..
"frenz" will get angry when u vent anger on em..
dey r nt frenz..
bcuz...
dey can't shared painz & sorrow wif u..
i'm lucky..
2 find one..
she's there whenever i need her..
i hope..i can b there..whenever she needs me..
thank u my frenz..
u r e onliz one...=)
sum quote i got frm her..
[when tt'z a million of pplz who care..i'll b one of em..]
[when tt'z a thousand of pplz who care..b surez..i'll b in..]
[when tt'z a hundred who carez..b sure..i'm still there..]
[when tt'z onliz 2 who carez..i'll b one of em..]
[when tt'z no one in tiz planet who carez..u noe..i'm gone..]
meaningful quote frm her..
thank u so much..=)
[all of tiz thingz i've said..is all frm her..]
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4/09/2003 11:26:00 PM
i dunnoe wad 2 say now..
nth more i can say..
everyone is nt wif me..
animore..
no a single person..
dey juz drifted away..
nt even bothering of my feelings..
even my
best buddies..
now..who i can trust?
e person who trust more..
e person who make me all e promises..
she's drifted away too..
we r
no more tt
close animore..
nt animore..
no one is close 2 me..
no one...
bcuz no one bother 2 consider all my feelings..
no one bother 2 b wif my..
no one wanna b wif me..when i'm sad...
where haf all my clique gone?
clique frm s3? frm s2?
dey r too gone..
no more wif me..
i hate myself..
of nt knowing how 2 keep us togetherz..
i feel
alone againz..
even during day time..
nt saying nite time..
who can b wif me 4 all e time i need sumone..
i used 2 haf pplz who willing 2 listen 2 me..
i noe i've changed..
so much tt lotz of em din wan 2 get near me animore..
y can't dey juz lyk me as wad i'm?
y 2 make pplz change juz 4 em..
i'm sorry..i can't..
i'll nv change..4 anione elses animore..
i change 4 myself..
onliz myself..
i noe pplz will say i'm being
self-centered..
but till now..
all my changes i did 4 all of em..
is nt even worth it..
if anione could make my changes worth it..
i'll change..4 tt person..
but..no one in particular could say tt 2 me..
no one..bcuz everyone..
making use of me..
y..
am i juz nt worth 4 my existance..?
will my death bring sadness 2 anione?
will my death bring sadness 2 my
"frenz"..
frenz 2 me..r no more
frenz..
bcuz..no one precisely is a frenz 2 me...
when dey need me..dey'll b nice..
when dey dun need me..
dey juz kick me aside..
y haf pplz 2 b so cruel..
i'm alwayz there 4 em...
but no one..is there 4 me alwayz..
when i always wan 2 find em..
dey juz..
find reasons 2 brush me awayz..
none of em juz bother abt me..
everyone so fake..
all e promise dey haf made..
but none of is promise is nt broken..
e moment u pplz brush me awayz..
or e moment..u pplz juz stop replying me 4 no reason..
i feel so unwanted..
i feel so xtra being in urs life..
i feel so isolated..
no matter who i msg..
no one seem 2 b interested in my prob..
no one seem 2 b interested of listening 2 me..
am i juz reallie nt worth of my existance..
if tt was so..
i juz wish 2 end my life..
bcuz no one precisely carez..
y bother living in tiz world...
can anione tell me my worth of existance?
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4/09/2003 04:02:00 AM
Tuesday, April 08, 2003
"...you can't make someone love you, all you can do is to be someone who can be loved, the rest is up to the person to realize your worth..."
i reallie lyk tiz quote..
reallie very nice..
sum feeling tt i alwayz wanted 2 express..
but..i juz can't find e rite one..
perhapz..it'z e rite 1..
e best 1 i can find perhapz..
yup..
can u understand wad i'm trying 2 mean..
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4/08/2003 08:44:00 PM
this is my way to live
What about yours?
made by rav-chan
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4/08/2003 08:27:00 PM
i can't help..
stop tinking of
her..
she juz filled my mind..
every part of my mind...
i wish i could stop..
but i juz can't..
no way will i juz gif up..
i noe i'm
stubborn..
but..i'll nv stop liking
her
she an
angel in my heart..
too..
she's e onliz one who can stop my tears frm cuming out..
she's e one who make my world continue turning..
now tell me..
how can i lose
her?
she's juz so impt..
so..plz dun force me 2 gif up animore..
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4/08/2003 01:20:00 AM
Monday, April 07, 2003
y haf i 2 cry 2 my slp..
every nite..
i've 2 cry till i'm tired..
then i'll stop crying & go 2 slp..
all i need now is u.
e onliz 1 who can stop me cry..
but..
u r no where near me..
is tt wad i shld get when i put so much in..
nite is e hardest time 2 pass..
2 tink abt everything..
& 2 fight back all tears..
everything tt used 2 b so wonderful..
haf all gone..
bcuz everyone juz gif it up..
everyone..
include u & her..
i refuse 2..
but in e end..
all of u force me 2..
force me 2 e extreme..
asking whether all i do is worth it..
bcuz no one seem 2 treasure anithing..
anithing & everything i did for
her..she..& u..
pplz juz noe how 2 say
sorry 2 me..
is there e use 2?
no...bcuz nth can b heal frm
sorry
nth can b heal...
haf u even seen sumone..
who is crying..
& at e same time..
cheering up sumone..
sumdaez..in tiz world..
u'll find out whois tt person..
how hard 4 me 2 been thru yesterday's nite..
e even painful nite..
1 nite tt i'll nv b able 2 4get..
bcuz..
both 4 me & her..
we r both so depressed..
tt'z nth i can do..
too..nth she can do..
e one who alwayz cheer me up..
was feeling e same as i do..
i suddenly feel e lost there..
i will nv b so alrite now..
if it wasn't her..
4..she's e one who push me back 2 everything..
4..she's e one who save me frm falling back..
4..she's e one who hold me back when i almost collapsed..
sumdae..i wonder..
wad if she were 2 b gone..
where will i b..
wad will i bcum?
e tot tt i nv wish tt it will ever cum thru..
bcuz..she's e onliz 1 i can rely on..
e one i wish 2 tok 2 when i'm sad..
but...y..
i'm had tt feeling againz..
i felt tt..
we r no more tt close animore..
we r no more able 2 tok abt everything under e sun..
we r no more there 4 each other..
she is no more there when i need her..
now..
wad will i bcum..
where will i b drifted 2..
wad kind of person will i changed 2..
i nv noe..
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4/07/2003 08:55:00 PM
[heart-broken]
againz..
she refuses 2 leave anithingz..
y...
i juz wan
her 2 leave sumthing..
anithing will do..
but..
she juz refused 2 do so..
juz u dun wanna leave anithing behind..
plz..dun cum in my blog..
dun ever..
cuz i dun wish 2 noe..
when u cum in..
& dun leave anithing..
tt'z more cruel than nt even cuming in..
u get wad i mean..
juz lyk e real life..
u came in..
nt leaving anithing..
& u juz left..
y 2 do tt 2 me..
u might as well dun cum in..
in real life..
in my blog..
u r doin' e same..
haf u torture me enough?
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4/07/2003 06:25:00 AM
[fear]
again..
tt kind of fear i got..
everyone..
leaving me alone..
leaving me out..
everyone drifting away frm me..
y am i having tiz kinda feeling again..
lotz of time..
tiz feelingz had overcame me..
i dunnoe how 2 get over it..
no way tt i can tink tt anione is wif me..
i dunnoe y..
i feel lyk
everyone is so fake..
i can't trust anione when i haf tt feeling..
except..4 her..
onliz her..who is able 2 cheer me up..
able 2 stop me frm crying..
juz simply able 2 b wif me..
able 2 make me realise tt at least she's still wif me..
is her...is diff frm e
her tt i usuallie tok abt..
bcuz..tt
her..is no more wif me..
i lose her..totally..
flew away..so fast..
i can hardly caught hold of
her wings..
she's juz lyk an angel..
she flew away..
so nicely..& beautifully..
tt angel..
is nv mine..
& will nv b mine..
but..
one part of me..
will alwayz b wif her..
e other part of me..
will b waiting 4 her...
2 cum back..
anitime..i'll b waiting..
till one dayz..
e whole part of me 2 b together againz..
tt day..
will b e day..
tt
she accepts me..
& b mine..
or...nv..will i stop waiting..
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4/07/2003 04:09:00 AM
