Fr0zen

Saturday, March 29, 2003

went back 2 slp..
rite after i finish blogging..=|
wake up at onliz 12 plus - 1..
mayb..i juz..learnt tt frm bel..
no idea..but..ermz..juz miz her..

wad e fuck..=|
she refused 2 tag animore..
she refused 2 reply me..=|
fuck fuck fuck..
wad haf i done wrong..
tt she started 2 ignore me..=|
she change so much..
WHY!
i reallie..dun understand her animore..
so long..haven i contacted her...
now..i msged her..=|
she nv reply..she nv even tag animore..=|
she blogged..but she nv tag..
fuck..=| haf she 2 change so much..=|
reallie hate tiz toopid fucking world..
y haf thingz 2 change juz so fast..
without even..=| us noticing..
juz lyk me..her..everyone..=|
freak world..juz simply hate being alive..=|
so long haven i c her..contact her..
so of tt toopid sars..
i'm nt able 2 b in sch..nt able 2 c her..
therefore..she changed..so much..
till..i dunnoe..her animore..=|
everything fade awayz..
bel..save me..=|

i tried so hard..
2 remain in tt..
but..she juz..crushed everythingz..
so she ignored..=|
she tot tt'z nth..
so it meant alot..
how much i've treasure her tag msg..
reallie..
i act as if i dun care..
but..i do care..
care so so so so so much..
bcuz of her..
i'm able 2 get up frm everythingz..
but now..
she juz left me alone..=|
wad e fuck..
bloody hell..
cann't she juz understand how i feel?
i act fake..bcuz i dun wish 2 pressurize her..
i act fake..bcuz i wish pplz 2 tink tt i'm out of tt..
but..in real life..
am i reallie out of tt?
i've nv..nv got out of tt toopid thingz..
u r still in my heart..
no one ever came in..
i haven broke my promise..though i said i might..
but i haven..u haven get out..
too..i haven get in..
cann't u juz understand??
u noe how much u meant..
mayb..u tink u USED 2 meant..
but..u r nt yet e history..
i've been still waitingz..
waiting juz 4 u 2 b ready..
cann't..u juz..do sumthing 2 it??

i noe..i said..i'm out..
but..i'm juz nt...
i cann't..hell of thinking tt i'll juz gif up lyk tt..
i wun.bcuz..i dun wish 2 regret...
bcuz..i luv her too much..
to gif her up..
i might nt b devoted in thingz..
but tiz time..
i juz simply can't get her out of my mind..
she..remain deep in my heart 2 actuallie get her out..=|
can u juz bloody hell understand how i feel..
& wad i'm trying 2 mean..
i tot u understand..
nt lyk e other pplz..
others might tink wad i said is e truth..
giving u up..
but u cann't..cuz i noe u understand..
plz..dun act as if u dun..juz bcuz u dun wish 2 noe..=|
I CAN NV BLOODY HELL GIF U UP!!!!!!!

<= Fr0zen* Tears* => 3/29/2003 11:05:00 PM

toopid dad..
juz wake e pathetic me up...
so..juz tink of blogging..
yup..=) so came here..
but..still damn early manz..
tired..
6 plus..y get e hell of me out..
=| though tiz e usual time i go sch..
but..todae is sun leh!!!
=| dot..
afterwards..dey goin' malaysiaz..
then..i'll..surez b alone..
haiz..haf 2 settle lunch my own..
yup..=|
how how? i wan 2 go out wif bel todae leh..
but..dunnoe larh...
she can't eat..my poor bel..=|

yesterdayz..
bel when lyk..
haiz..so pathetic..
she..still cann't get over..
u noe wad i mean..
then she was lyk saying asking me 2 leave her alone & watch e bloody hell show..=|
u tink tt i'll meh..
blood!
i said i wun leave u alone bel..=|
toopid..=|
how r u now..
hope tt u r aslp..=|
reallie..tried 2 get over kae..
dun wish 2 alwayz c u sad..
yup..=)
okay..i mean..
if cry make u feel betta..
go ahead..
i wun stop u..=)
but..i wun leave u alone..u noe..
i noe..how terrible is being left alone...when u wish sumone is wif u..
i noe..=) tt'z y i'm here bel..
okay bel..dun treat me as if i'm a big bloody stranger..=|
i'm nt..=|
bel..take care kae?
dun b sad..=| i'll b alwayz by ur sidez..2 support u..
listen 2 u..kae? i promise..=)

<= Fr0zen* Tears* => 3/29/2003 02:17:00 PM

blood blood blood..=|
toopid screwed blogz..=|
y dun u juz let bel in?
y onliz bel..& y onliz my blog..=|
reallie super screwed...juz simply hate it..=|
u noe..haha..
bel..u lyk screwed up my life..
ermz...dunnoe y..yup..
but..everytime toking 2 u..
i feel..so free...
yup..lyk sumone is reallie supporting me 4 everythingz u noe..
yup..& caring abt me..haha..
thank 4 urs *hug* todae..
i'm alrite..nt cold liaoz..yup..
u too..muz take care kae..dun tink too much..
esp at nite..i noe..=|
i wun leave u alone..
u'll nv b alone..
bel..i promise u..
i'll b there listening 2 u..
wherever u need me..
i'm sorry tt yesterday...i din reply u..
i reallie dunnoe..=|
i'm reallie reallie sorry..
i promise u..
i'll b there..anitime u need me..
frm now..till 4ever...
i'll switch my hp back 2 normal mode againz..
2 get urs callz..& msges..
i'll..i used 2 switch it 2 silent..
cuz..=| of her..u noe..yup rite..=)
bel..believe me kae?
i'll b urs listening earz..
i promisez..=)

<= Fr0zen* Tears* => 3/29/2003 06:11:00 AM

Thursday, March 27, 2003

<= Fr0zen* Tears* => 3/27/2003 11:31:00 PM

ermz..
juz woke up..
haven even spoke anithingz..
haiz..
wanna go out 2dae..
very sianz at home..
bloody..
bel..where r u..
sumone acc me stoning againz todae...
in ceni..or heeren..
dun carez..
juz dun wish 2 b at home...
& onliz bel can acc me stoning..
cuz..other pplz will say
i'm crazy..
hahahz...
cuz.no one precisely will sit at one place & stone 4 3 hrz?
yah..except 4 me & bel..
bel bel bel..where r u...
i wan 2 stone...
bel..reply my msg leh..=|
i'm lyk damn sianz now..=|

<= Fr0zen* Tears* => 3/27/2003 05:34:00 PM

The Calling - For You

I am a vision, I am justice
Never thought that I could love
Living in shadows, faded existence
It was never good enough
Within the darkness, you were the light
That shines away
You’re trapped in violence, I can be the man
That saves the day

I’m there for you
No matter what
I’m there for you
Never giving up
I’m there for you
For you

Someone has changed me, something saved me
Now this is who I am
Although I was blinded, my heart let me find that
Truth makes a better man
I didn’t notice that you were right in front of me
A mask of silence, we’ll put away so we can see

I’m there for you
No matter what
I’m there for you
Never giving up
I’m there for you
For you

For you

Within the darkness, you are the light
That shines away
In this blind justice, I can be the man
That saves the day

I’m there for you
No matter what
I’m there for you
Never giving up

You know it’s true
You were there for me
And I’m there for you
For you
For you
For you

<= Fr0zen* Tears* => 3/27/2003 04:43:00 AM

la~la~la~la~
i'm..quite happie todae..yah..=)
cuz of bel..
yah..=)
thank ya bel..
thank 4 acc me "stoning"...
thank 4 listening 2 me..
thank 4 tt drink todae..=) [i'll pay u sumdae..haha]
thankz..4 bring wif me todae..
i'm very happie..
cuz..at least..tt'z pplz wif me..
i wun go wild tinkingz..=)
bel..i reallie luv u..yah..=)
next time go out againz kae? yup!

jing..thankz..=)
thankz 4 cuming my blog againz...
yah..=) & written thingz on my blog..
thankz ya..=) luv ya~
u too..
thankz care kae..=)

thank everyone 4 being wif me..
when i'm sick..
when i'm nt feeling okay..
when no one wish 2 b wif me..[tiz 2 bel]
thankz u..
thank 4 asking 4 me..[tiz 4 jing..]
reallie thank everyonez..=)
cuz..at least..
i noe..i've pplz wif me..=)
esp bel...
thank u againz..
4 being so caring..=)
i promise..next time...
when u feel sad..or when u need sumone 2 tok 2..
bel..i will b there 2 listen 2 u..
juz lyk wad u told me..=)
yah..i'll b there..=)
cheers everyone..
thank jing..thank bel...thank zel..thank all of u!

<= Fr0zen* Tears* => 3/27/2003 04:41:00 AM

Wednesday, March 26, 2003

dunnoe y..
pplz juz hate me 4 no reason..
when i dun even noe emz..
dey juz tsk me..
& hate me..4..dunnoe y..
pplz toking bad abt me behind my back..
tt'z y dey juz hate me..
though i din do anithingz..
=| fuck off pplz..

yeah..
dun needa go sch tml & e dae afterz..
cuz of sars..
chia dun allow me goin' 2 sch..
wad's e prob wif her larh..
nvm herz..
tml i go town then..
since dun allow me 2 sch..
=| fuck her..
tml got maths test summore..
trng..compre...remedial..
aiyoz..gonna miz all tiz thingz..
all chia's fault..
freak her..bloody hell..blood

<= Fr0zen* Tears* => 3/26/2003 01:47:00 AM

Tuesday, March 25, 2003

sum pplz juz dun fucking understand me..
dey tried & tried..
2 push me off my limit..
-fuck-
do tt mean tt..
u guyz r happie seeing me collaspe??!!
juz fuck off!
can u guyz juz leave my life alonez?
bloody hell kind of pplz..=|
dun understand anione animorez..
everyone haf change
bloody hell much..!
tt'z y..no one understand me animorez..=|

<= Fr0zen* Tears* => 3/25/2003 07:35:00 AM

CANN'T PPLZ JUZ UNDERSTAND ME??!!!
dun force me animore..
dun tell me anithingz abt her tt concern abt u..
dun..ever..do tt againz...
realliez..reallie dun push me 2 e limitz..
cuz..one dayz..
i'll..juz ask u 2 fuck off..

i dunnoe how 2 face herz..
todae..she was so close 2 me..
yet..i cann't do anithingz..
cuz i juz cann't face her icy-cold eyez..
soooo hurtingz..
i'm sorry 2 juz turn awayz..

though..i can tell u sumthingz..
during tt half hrz..
u nv leave my sightz..
cuz..i juz wan 2 c u..
juz seeing u make me happiez..
yah..=)
quietly watchingz..yahz..=)
u r so cute..yah..=)
but..i noe..we can nv...
get ani closer..
so..pplz..dun ever say tt we r close..
we r nt..
we hardly even talk...
i nv...tok 2 her b4..
i can hardly remember her voice..
cuz..she onliz speak 2 me twice..
yah..=| but..i din..replyz..yah..
u can say i'm daoz..
but..frankly..i'm nt..=|

she meant very little..
yet alotz..
dun reallie noe y..=|
dun ask me y..

dun understand y...
pplz juz accuse & accuse & accusing me..
dear all...
i seriously...already at my limit...
wad r u expecting frm me?
*freak*
i do wad my limit allow me 2..
i tried everythingz...
juz 2 make her happiez..
but still..
no one is satisfied..
okay..u guyz try..
juz try..try 2 push me off my limit..
u c..wad i'll do..
-fuck off-

<= Fr0zen* Tears* => 3/25/2003 02:39:00 AM

Monday, March 24, 2003

[sumtimez..i reallie hate when sumone betray me..]
[nt sumtimez..but alwayz..]
[y haf pplz juz 2 do tt?]
[dun dey haf better thingz 2 do?]
[y haf em 2 juz tell everyonez?]
[everythingz?]
[when i told em..again & againz..]
[I SAID..I DUN WAN ANIONE TO NOE!]
[dun pplz understand e english i spoke?]
[dun pplz understand e english words i wrote?]
[tiz e last time i'm goin' 2 say..]
[i noe who betray me..]
[i noe..i can find out..]
[dun ever try lying 2 me..]
[or u'll suffer e consequences...]
[dun blame me if i'm juz turn my face & ask u 2 "fuck off"..]
[it's nt my fault..]
[u piss me off 1st..]
[pplz listen!]
[i hate pplz who try 2 bluff me..]
[i can tell u guyz..]
[i noe everythingz tt'z happening ard..]
[i can close 1 eye..]
[but..dun push me 2 e limit tt i'll do unpleasant thingz..]
[when i seriously tell u 2 keep thingz 2 urself..]
[u betta do so..]
[or..dun blame me...4 doin' unpleasant thingz..]
[u force me 2..]

<= Fr0zen* Tears* => 3/24/2003 05:41:00 AM

Juz msg her..yah...
dunnoe y..
found tt..
i actuallie..
we cann't get along animore..
yah..thingz r juz drifting away..
she's no more e one i noe..
i reallie sorry..
or am i e one changing..
okayz.i've changed 2 sumone tt i dun even understand myself..
i'm sorry pplz..
4gif me 4 my ignorant..

i dunnoe wad..
she tried 2 change..
e way she used 2 b..
2 suit wad i expect frm her..
i hate fake pplz..remember?
i said b4..
i dun lyk pplz being fake..
i hate it..
dun change..bcuz otherz wan u 2..
change bcuz..u tink u shld..
dun b fake!
so plz..dun ever..b fake..
bcuz u r trying 2 suit my expectation..
i'm nt happie..i AM NT HAPPIE!

wad's wif her..
y..i cann't feel e strength animore..
i cann't hear e voice animore..
e strength which make me stay..
e voice..which get me e hope..
now..dey r all gone..
bcuz..u've change..
2 sumone..i nv noe..
reallie..or is tt..
i dun used 2 understand u enough..
everything faded..
i'm sorry..
i'll..break my promise sum dayz..
bcuz..i cann't carry on wif tt promisez..
bcuz..u r..another pplz..tt i nv noe..
-u r nt e last one animore..-
i'm truthfully sorry..i cann't keep e promise i made..
bcuz..i cann't feel or hear tt strength or voice within me 2 make me carry on..
carry on waiting 4 u..
i'm sorry..i din mean it..
though..i noe..u wun b hurt..
bcuz..i meant nth..=|

<= Fr0zen* Tears* => 3/24/2003 05:12:00 AM

I DUNNOE I DUNNOE!!!
dun ask me anithingz..
i got nth 2 do wif her..!
ARGH!!!!
i'm so stressed-up!
haf pplz 2 stress me up more?

i'm sorry..i sorry!
i din mean 2 dao u..
i din mean it..reallie din..
but..i juz..dun dare..
2 look into e icy-eyez of ursz..
it'z..so hurtingz..
even juz looking into urs eyez..
cuz..wad i c..is urs rejecting.
& her tt u r tinking off..
her tt haf alwayz been in urs mind..
her tt i noe u will nv get over..=|
urs eyez..
tell me all tiz thingz..
i juz hate looking into urs eyez..
how cruel..& cold can tt get? haiz..

can i..ever b e sun tt melt tt ice awayz?
can i? i noe i cann't...
no matter..
how long i've been waitingz..
how much hurt i got..
i noe...i can nv..take over her place..
bcuz..she simply..juz took up urs whole mindz..
u juz simply cann't 4get her...
wad'z e use of me waitingz..
cuz..u juz cann't..
juz cann't get over e "her" in urs heart..
urs heart..is full..full of her...
no more space 4 pplz lyk me...
okayz..i might as well..juz..get off..=|
*fuck off manz..*

<= Fr0zen* Tears* => 3/24/2003 01:03:00 AM

Sunday, March 23, 2003

ermz...yah..=|
i wanna upload sum photos..yah..
but let's see...whether i can..hahha...1st time kae?

yup..
wish annie can 4gif me..
yah..cuz dunnoe y..
she nv lyk me..
nv..reallie..dunnoe y..
sorry annie..reallie sorry..
perhapz tt'z e onliz thingz i can do...
i dunnoe wad i've done 2 piss u off..
but..i'll try my best nt 2 do tt again..[if i can ever noe y i actuallie pissed her off..yah..]
yah..reallie sorry annie..din meant it..okayz?
4gif me..yah..

ermz..bro juz bought sum superior thingz yesterdayz..
ermz? yah..e wireless keyboard & mouse..
but..no use 2 me..
cuz i dun haf my spec..
how 2 c frm far?
ermz..haiz..useless..=|

ermz..juz draw sum..pic..
yah..cartoonz..
tinkz..is 4 jing..
yah..cuz everythingz i wrote therez..
is 4 her..yah..
let's c wad i wrote..
ermz..in chi..
aiyah...4got liaoz..=|
nvm..next time scan in com..yah..
tinkz putting it at e graffi cafe..
dunnoe..dependz..

okay..tinkz i go try out e photo upload thingz..yah..
[juz remember sumthingz..]
[todae i suppose 2 practice my home econ..]
[haiz...=|]

<= Fr0zen* Tears* => 3/23/2003 04:13:00 AM